it´s pretty normal bro. an addiction is a hard opponent. see if you can learn something with this start, what are you triggers, how the addicted mind works, etc... here´s a little push
to reach a mountain top we must rest several times uphill. learn with the relapse bro, gather information and go again when you feel ready. much love
i think the mood will stabilize, definitely, when the brain is rewired. but only time will tell when that will be cause the impact of the addiction works with lot´s of factores: age, overall health, degree of addiction, etc... just keep going. do what you enjoy doing in the moment, no schedules, no programs, just go with the flow. do what you love, follow the inspiration of the moment. that will boost your spirit
day 5 complete. i am putting a lot of energy into the guitar that i would usually be putting into porn. it feels great. going to a 12 step meeting tonight.
Day 83 Next week I got the 90 days! Today I got my german exam back... wow... a failure. This teacher is a fucking person who gives everybody a bad mark. Today I had the worst mark from everybody! How can I explain THIS to my parents? They think I am just too lazy (well in school yes because we learn just boring topics and I do nothing except some homework). Had also a fight with an urge, could fight against it! Maybe I should do more sport again to avoid them. But in last time I am VERY tired and feel very weak and exhausted...uff...
Welcome back my friend! Take it one day, one urge at a time...we have to always remain vigilant and working a daily program, doing those things daily that help us stay away from pmo. That’s been my experience anyway...we find the tools that work for us and keep using them, sometime adding on new tools and sometimes letting go of ones for awhile, but always daily using tools that will help us fight this addiction. Good luck!
Day 32 of no PM Day 101 of no alcohol or caffeine Day 69 of weight training Day 2 of meditation - great workout today and good sleep last night - feeling great about recent advances in my nofap education and journey - looking forward to my session with JK tomorrow at elevatedrecovery.org - no temptations so far today - all is good - keep calm and carry on everyone
whenever I feel pity for myself i came here & read post & realize I'm not the only one in this journey many others are there who have lost many things as I have lost my dream because of PMO...i dont have comparison with others i have to just make myself better & better everyday...35 days to go