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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
13/90 first half of the day sucked, second half not so much , I just continue to work on me
Thanks. I'm feeling very good. Now on to 365!
It's been a long hard road, not just the 90 days, but all the failures trying to get to 90 in the past.
Not just pmo. I gotta stop wasting time elsewhere and actually do something.
Constantly trying to rewire my brain .
One day at a time and one urge at a time.
For all those facing difficulties , have a visit here https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/
All the best guys
without porn 16/90, nofap 09
Back to 0. I learned a lot in my 8 day streak. Had 2 small falls this evening. Did not binge for hours though, that is good. Was hardly aroused when PMOing.
A feeling came up that I do not understand what it is and how to handle it. I did all the right things in my temptations. Went for a walk and talked to friends on the phone. Watched some nofap material. The one nofap video I was watching had a small piece of nudity in it. It was enough to throw me over the edge.
I am sure my brain healed some in the last 8 days. Those 8 days I made progress. I am not where I was 9 days ago. Keep pushing forwards. I will get there.
I have completed the 90 day challenge!! Overall, I have completed 135 days of no porn, and no masturbation. Thank you all for the support. The next challenge I am going to join is the 365 day challenge. I'm just going to keep focusing on ONE day at a time of not watching porn and not masturbating.
Done with Day 27, going through Day 28
Day 0 complete
Day 1 progress
day 5/90. Something different in the air. I might manage to get into double digits this time. This is what I wrote in my privatechat with two forum members here. Might be helpful to others:
"For me now, the key is not so much on quitting. I tried that the past half year and it keeps a kind of tension on the whole thing which is difficult to maintain. What helps me is focussing on other stuff. Not doing PMO becomes more of a by-product. I had a couple of serious talks in my life with close friends. You can't force this, it just happened because my close friends were all going through a tough time. Just spending time with them and listening kind of eased my own burden and made me realise how I handle things in my own life. Ask yourself, what are your roadblocks in your life? For me it was chores: I neglected them. Thought of them as petty. I am an artist and thought of them as unnecessary, only something "normal" folks do. I needed my chaos to thrive, etc etc blabla, all excuses not to change.
A friend of mine was going through a rough breakup and was kicked out by his wife. I was working a lot the past couple of weeks spending nights out of town. So he could stay at my place. When I came home in between work we would have lots of talks, and just focussing my energy not on my own problems but on somebody else gave me such a different energy. It made me see it as simple as it was. Because in the end, it is simple (and that's why we hate ourselves when we can't break free): Just don't watch porn. It's that simple. Still it's hard as hell that's why we are here. But when we are so tangled up in our own thoughts, our problem becomes this whole mess of problems and we make it bigger. When I came home one night after spending a couple of days at work I was stunned; my dear friend cleaned up my whole kitchen. This ignited a whole thing; I could see that it made me feel great. if he could do it I could do it. Now everyday I just start with chores. That made me want to persue other things I have been leaving: Doing my taxed properly, getting my shit done. Responding to mails/whatsapp immediately, keeping my word to people. I mean not that I do everyting perfectly but I try.
Now, if that friend wasnt in his situation all this wouldnt happen. Look for what life brings your way. Dont focus so much on beating this. GET A PORN BLOCKER. Don't make the mistake of being too proud ("I have to fight this on my own without a porn blocker"). Fuck pride. You are doing this yourself anyway. It takes away all the microdecision ("shouldnt i just watch for a minute? ah, just a 30 second clip what the hell, i can manage. I have to fight the temptation man its so difficult"). The problem with Pornblockers is that I had a free one (k9) but that stopped. Now it took some time for me to find a new one, they are all paid and I don't think they work perfectly.
So STOP fighting. Let a Pblocker do the work for you and TAKE IN LIFE. What does it bring? Roll with the punches, focus on others/other things and get your shit done. Do things that EXCITE you. What needs to be done for YOU, do it with an open mind and let yourself be taken by that stream. Take care."
Are you going to do 365 on top of 135? Or you keep counting from 135 until 365?
No numbness anymore
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