Okay it's been a really confusing week for me Apparently what I thought was my last relapse was a false alarm and was rather very sick(stomach sickness) which made me feel like crap all week and made me think I relapsed even though I did not, I was doing just fine just very sick This morning I had some sexual thoughts and sort of layed there until l I ejaculated, very strange experience because I did not even touch myself even slightly or was even moving at all I woke up and found out that I actually relapsed for real this time because I checked my genitals and they were tight against my body instead of loose like normal I'm not really upset/frustrated this time, just kinda confused. Like it sucks yeah, but I'm not that bummed out about it really I feel like every relapse I learn more about myself and about how NoFap works for me This is a process for me, I don't look forward to relapse but they show me something about the how this works because every new failure, the relapses have gotten tamer(less physical contact with privates) and I've always come back stronger and with more knowledge This streak I feel more grounded and will be more careful about my actions and thoughts, today is a new day and I will make the best of it All I have is today and I will use it for positive change Have a great day everyone and stay clean
Excellent insight bro. Yep, in those 2 axis: partying and healing, pmo its a wrongfull answer. So try to see other ways to celebrate properly. Plenty of stuff to choose from
I hope all brothers are going strong and steady. Remember: if you keep doing the same behaviours, you'll get the same results. This works for the good and the bad. Shitty day for me yesterday, discussions with wife that ended in bad mood and low energy still never in a single moment i consider fapping my pain away. Feeling better today I found that music is a really good therapy. Lets keep going my brothers, onwards!!! "The training? I hated every second, but i told myself, suffer now and be a champion forever" Mohammed Ali
We all stumble, my man. Learn from it and come back stronger! I know resetting the counter sucks...but the counter is just a number. It doesn’t measure your progress, just a string of perfect days. “Every strike brings me closer to the next home run.” -Babe Ruth
Days completed 11 Relapsed 2 Day 0/90 I will get hold on my addiction. Today I relapsed but I didn't binge it. I can do it.
Caved Woke up this morning with a sore stomach. Must have been something I ate. Then I got a bit depressed about being single and started to wander. Saved it, but then never really shook off the depressing mood. Not a good day. Not sure how it happened when I have been on a gradual up. Anyway, annoyed at myself, but not going to dwell. Got shit to do that I have been putting off, so going to attack it now. That was my longest streak for about 20 days (shockingly!), so time to build on that straight away. Keep going everyone. And to those that have failed, just keep on trying! You will be building on it every time, even if you don't think you are!
Feeling pretty shitty from hard reset. Day 0 again I keep telling myself this will be the streak that lasts, but always end up disappointing myself.
I relapsed again and again. I don't know what is wrong with me. Why I can't leave this addiction of mine.
