Today is my 19th day, 71 days to go, still, the focus is firm... Started day with meditation and now will study "Rebooting as the best Remedy Season 8" once again...
I had a weird start to my day one morning. I was so grouchy that I hated the sound of everyone's voice. I shocked myself with that emotion. I can be a grouch sometimes but that was another level for me. It was also during my first attempt at 30 days of no PMO. It may have been a symptom of dopamine withdrawal for all I know. I also had a few random days and moments of anxiety and feeling down. I did gain something positive from those experiences. I became more conscious of my emotional state. With that, I began learning to keep my mood swings from affecting my actions. I even gained a few techniques to swing my mood in a positive direction.
Day 18 of 90 No PMO 25-10-2019 72 to go 20,00% reached +10 days no O Blog https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/do-or-do-not-there-is-no-try.233707/page-10#post-2293388
Relapsed !!! Was overconfident, went for porn stuff with determination of not falling... but forgot that I'm still addicted and not but I felt and wanna be. Highly disappointed with myself... Need to scold myself and give some task that is good but not liked by me. ..
Well, from that changed quickly! Crashed and burned yesterday Was really tired from the start, spent the day doing nothing, started to wander, and then my will power came crashing down like a house of cards! At least going to work last night kept me busy and my mind off things. So, that was 3 good days this time. Still making progress. Time to get back up and build on that even more!
Day 1 restarted again . this days I have to fight very hard is like living a perpetual hell where u can’t feel what is real or not anymore...today I’m drained..no energy for go out and no motivation..they keep saying masturbation doesn’t affect energy level at all ? That big bs don’t get fool by that and don’t fall down this is a real war...wish u all the best and much love ❤️❤️
