Damn it, I feel I'm slipping again this week, really bending the rules, looking at stuff that I tell myself is okay and just touching myself a little, but I know it's not and I really can't do that. I have to be more strict. And I have to stop running away from the uneasiness that is making me want to escape in the first place. Exercise some self-love, not physical but spiritual and unconditional. And I can't wait with doing that until it's too late.