[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 3. I joined this forum 216 days ago. Of those 216 days, I was 193 days without M’ing to P.

 

36/90

 

Yes, the middle of the night is a dangerous time for me as well. I wake up almost every night because I have to go to the bathroom and for years this was the moment I brought my phone with me to the bathroom and spend 15, 30 minutes reading erotic stories.

Then when I started to manage to not go to my porn sites during the day, the middle of the night would be a moment I'd still read those stories out of habit and not having the same discipline and will that I have during the day.

Just two days ago I had another moment in the middle of the night that my foggy brain thought it was okay if I just had a quick peak at one of the pages of stories I checked often. I went as far as going to the page and scrolling before I managed to think clearly and stop myself.

 

Life is just that way. I would say the thing to do is strive to be the ideal you, live to your highest each moment of each day until it passes (And it will pass) and you'll come out the other side slightly better than you were.

 

Last night I was going to check in but fell asleep while reading the posts. If I make it to 10 oclock p.m. california time I'll have 20 days. The daily check in and reading of posts and listening to some of the videos truly helps. Thanks to my fellow travellers.. One day at a time.

 

3/90!

 

Hey Bro,

I hope I'm not overstepping, but I really think you need to reset your counter. If you watched actual porn videos all day long and even started edging, that's a relapse. Remember, PMO stands for:

P - Porn
M - Masturbation
O - Orgasm

Going 90 days without PMO means going 90 days without ANY of those 3 things! I know that could be hard to hear, but trust me it is for the best. I used to tell myself it was OK as long as I didn't actually orgasm. Somehow I convinced myself that the orgasm is the part that "seals the deal" and makes it an actual relapse. Unfortunately, this is just simply untrue. When you watch porn it strongly reinforces the brain pathways we are trying to dismantle by rebooting. It doesn't matter if you don't "go all the way" and actually masturbate and/or orgasm.

I know there can be some gray areas here, like if you accidentally see a sexy video on Facebook or see something on TV that's triggering. Each person has to decide where the line is. But choosing to sit and watch porn all day is undeniably a relapse into porn use. No question about it.

Anyway, I really hope you don't take this as judgement or condescention. I've told myself that same thing for several years (it's ok as long as I don't M or O) and the fact is that's just a lie. It's not "ok" it's straight up porn use. Trust me, thinking that way will not help you! We must all have very high standards for ourselves if we're going to truly escape from porn.

Hope this helps!

 

Alright
Day 9/90 Checking-in
This time I want to try a new approach
Cut out porn entirely!
I joined nofap for quite a few years, but only until last year I started to take it seriously, and see some really good results.
I'd say last year I did it pretty well, but still unable to make it till 90 days.
I always relapsed at a point.
So this time I decided to only not watching porn for 90 days.
At first, I thought if I want to do this, obviously go for the hard mode. But after so many failures, I want to try this new approach, I'd go for the easy mode since porn is the main thing to cut out and it harms us so bad.
I read something from a book, the author said limit masturbation to only once a week, and not fantasizing the porn actress, only allow to fantasize real women that we'd want to have a relationship with.
I want to apply this, but not fantasizing anyone because of my religious perspective.

I have been same as Timothy. I fool myself saying that as long as I don't M or O it does not count as a relapse. But it is not true. If I intentionally watched porn, it is a relapse. Nothing else.

Let us all quit porn for good.
For a better life.
For a better self.
To be the best for the one in the future.
All the best brothers!

 

Day 31/90. Feeling really stressed from gf's mom drama. I don't know if she is just bored or what but it's created some stress. The good news is I feel very confident in my resolve to stay away from PMO despite this situation. I think before this would have caused me to relapse because that used to be my way to escape problems. Now, I've found other ways to deal with problems and I feel quite good about myself, but need to stay humble and continue to take everything one step at a time.

 

Agreed!

 

Happy Evening
02/90
Raring to go

 

Day 16/90

 

goodbro

 

Day 37 already

I almost went to the porn site I used to frequent, instead I chose to read some of your inspiring posts here. Thank god I didn't open the site and instead decided to come here and write about it.

I had to remind myself that I have a choice and I don't have to watch porn just because I'm bored and tired after having to work on a Sunday or what ever lame excuse I could come up with.

 

Completed 14 days.

I just realized how strong urges have become. Then I am feeling a bit stressed and anxious coz of work. But I got trust the process.

I also really want to finish these 90 days and move to 365 days. Last year I did 100 days, I just don't know why it is soo hard

 

Day 3/90. Feeling motivated and interested in studies.... finally!

 

Day 50/90 COMPLETED ❤️❤️

I literally feel like crying! It's beeeeeen a journey! My 'NOs' to PMO are paying off. I am now able to control myself in other areas of my life bc self-control in this area has been active. My confidence is picking up bc now I know I really do not have to PMO to pleasure myself,there are plenty of ways to do that. Not all things should end up being sexual or peverse.

I'm so glad I stuck it out even in the hardest moments. ❤️.

 

3/90. I don't have much to say these days, just reaffirming my commitment to recovery every single morning.

 

Yup, I’m 15 days hard mode and also recently cut out social media, and have also had some weak moments but made it through. Here’s to keeping on the path, here’s to getting one more day

 

15 days no pmo. I’m really going to try to do what’s necessary for recovery, be diligent and cautious but not afraid, and just get one more day...