Accountability for All

Thanks all of you for being there today is been a difficult day so I just want to declare that that wormtongue dog hijacker can be just shut down but I do have to do my antidote so right now I'm doing my meditation antidote and the frog swimming around and the dough and then I need to just get back on track cuz I have stuff to do today

 

Day 3 ( Relapsed )

Damn!
The chaser effect is a real thing. I need to get my momentum real quick now

It's always the same. Everytime I'm going to sleep, and everytime i woke up, that's where my drive to fap is at it's peak.
That would be interesting if there's any scientific reason behind it

 

Cycles of hormones of course but the thing is we all have to deal with it without porn or masturbation...
it is very challenging but it is as possible....
I am very having difficulty shutting the shit down in my head right now

 

Day 12 today and no pmo till now...90 days is the target. Let's do this!

 

Alright I failed to keep my self monitoring very well...
Some of that all I was saying yes just some fantasies and I see it was personally because I had seen some images earlier in the day...
I went searching for porn how stupid...
can I say it again..
I went searching for porn how stupid...
So I need some help to let my conditioned mind know that I don't need that and I'm not going to do that....???

 

Day 2

 

Don't worry bro we keep pushing, and we don't ever stop.
We are all your crew members, and we need you to hang in there to help us pull that lead weight up.

The vastness of the sea won't conquer us. Don't trust what your mind is telling you now, it has never worked in the past and every time you "gave in" your conditioned mind got worse.

Mistakes have been made, but don't get angry over them. Because as long as you are still hanging on in there, we'll all be able to pull the lead up out of the water and get the ship sailing again.

-Momakyet

 

Day 59, I've noticed that somethimes I chech in on social media (with wasn't really the plan the first 3 months) and sometimes you see some wrong articles, fortunetaly I don't really have the urge to do something, but it is not the right way to go, so we need to work really hard for the exams for school one more week and don't watch YT shorts or scrolling on FB, then we are going to watch the free video on the site of DopamineDetox another time to make sure we gain the full motivation back and no thoughts at all, like earlier.

But it is not that bad yet, but we also want to prevent that from happening, keep clicking away and immediately close the app if you see something.

 

Jus checkin in,

Hanged out with friends at the park, got injured in the basketball courts (bruised and scrapped my knee, ouch!)
Thought there was gonna be some light gang violence but nothing as eventful as that happened.
I need to work on playing videogames much less and studying more

Keep pushing guys, we're all gonna make it.

 

Great progress my man, keep it up.

 

If you're on pc you can get an extension called "unhook" which basically gets rid of YouTube recommendations entirely and gets rid of the addictive factor of youtube. There is probably an alternative for facebook and other social medias.

Spoiler: Youtube unhook extension

https://chrome.google.com/webstore/...be-rec/khncfooichmfjbepaaaebmommgaepoid?hl=en

Also you can add this extension to limit your youtube screen time per day

Spoiler: Youtube time

https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/youtube-time/ooilajigbnoajdapojdpglknkpedmcbj?hl=en

If you are on mobile, then there are other ways of making youtube less addicitive
I read this article but I'm not sure if it is as useful as it seems (I don't use my phone, so thats why I wouldnt know if it works or not, jus give the article a read and do what it says)

Spoiler: How to "unhook" Youtube for mobile

https://infoinspired.com/how-to-gui...videos-appearing-on-your-android-youtube-app/

 

Day 61, my longest streak was around 2 months, I think 2 months, so almost the longest streak in my life, I have 4,5 days to go untill my last exam needs to be handed in and than we can enjoy of this moment!

 

Just checkin in,
Gonna go meet up with a friend that I havn't seen in a long time.

 

Thanks man I needed to hear that because it's funny it really is possible to stay positive even though I'm so fucked up...
So I am grateful for their birthday old again today, but then did meditation and I am eating too much but I'm about finished.
So what is interesting is playing again and again in my head this experience where there's sort of wormtongue hijack or says " just do it, just look at that porn... "
It is almost funny to me how stupid it is...
That voice is just some stupid lie conditioned running machine motor thing, that someone has forgotten to shut off....
and when I see it in that way it really helps...
So I'm imagining in some deeper part of me and on-off switch and it is directly connected to that wormtongue hijacker voice...
And when I shut that switch off that wormtongue hijacker voice is directly shut off...
So we'll see how that goes I also didn't review this morning first thing my yellow book of all the twenty years of screw-ups fuck ups, gross pain, lost money, lost relationships, lost business, lost everything...
When I review this is kind of an HCT gross huge remorse review that really helps me.... it also helps me to just review before I go to bed if I can remember thx all...
Angels to the heads and shoulders of everyone in nofap and everyone who is struggling with porn and sexual addiction....

 

Day 17 today... feeling a little bit restless, getting the urge to pmo again. I need to control my thoughts and feelings, it's abit tough but doable so just wish me luck guys I WILL MAKE IT DO 90 DAYS! I CAN I WILL!!.

 

Happy Easter everybody! For me it will we a study Easter, but we are almost at the end of the examination period. Day 62 today.

 

Today the weather is terrible.
None of the people I hang out with are going out.

I'm stuck in home, and I'm too close to my PC today.
A friend has offered to play videogames with me, but I do no wish to indulge.

I'm not sure how to deal with this situation, urges are growing once again.
If I spend the day studying instead of indulging I will reduce the stress for future me and make future me's job easier
but my current self is quite stressed right now and wants to indulge in instant gratification activities to "feel better".

I need to push through, the urges will go away if I do so.

 

Day 63, come, 2,5 days to go untill the end of the examination period, have to figure out a solution for a group project as I don't have the time to explain choises and to extend things a lot and I don't want to risk a second chance, we will figure that out tomorrow, in the evening we can work on the APA to make time.

 

Day 63

 

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