Does anyone here have long flatline testimonies?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by hervesta, Feb 13, 2021.

  1. hervesta

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    (18m) I've been in flatline for around 40 days now, and its been getting to me real bad. No sex drive, more anxiety, light depression, broken penis, low motivation, cant think straight, etc. To make things worse I can't even get much sunlight nor socializing now because of quarantine in winter. I'm just so out of it now and I feel like there is something permanently wrong with me, so I wanna ask if anyone else here has experienced flatlines as long or longer than these so it will give me hope for the future. I just wanna be normal again and fully heal from these scars man.
     
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  2. Cosmo1971

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    I’ma year and four minths into recovery with only a handful of relapse. Current streak six minths. Still having a wet dream about every two weeks to every week and a half. When i do it starts the depression and lethargy of flatline all over. Terrified to be in a relationship because of it and i don’t know what to do. People are wondering why I’m avoiding dating.
     
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  4. hervesta

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    cool... but what about the length of your flatlines like I asked about...
     
  5. hervesta

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  6. Cosmo1971

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    I’m still in flatline after a year and four months
     
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  7. Cosmo1971

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    I’m 34 been watching porn since i got a phone in my 20s so at least ten years. Yes it’s talking a while to recover.
     
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  8. hervesta

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    ah I see, Ive been on PMO for 5 years. I may be in flatline for 2 more months
     
  9. JI7097

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    I’m on like a 120 day flatline that doesn’t seem to be ending anytime soon :/
     
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  10. Anonymous86

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    Damn. Any signs of improvement? How about mental/brain fog improvements?
     
  11. ISOhappiness

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    I’m curious if everyone is on the same page as to what “flatline” means. I always considered it to mean having no interest in sex, numb to the idea. No erections.

    That being said, I get a sense of depression in the above comments that go beyond the rebooting process. Now your Porn is gone :( and the dopamine and excitement it brought you :( and you haven’t replaced it with anything meaningful like working out, spending more time with friends and family, starting a business, learning an instrument, travel, starting or finishing or excelling more at your school or studies.... and MOST importantly trying and getting a girlfriend.

    I know it’s not equally as easy for every guy to get a girl but if you find one you like and she likes you, your flatline will be gone. Your D might need some time to learn how to behave on the regular but you will.

    Hard Work is rewarding, you can do it!
     
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  12. JI7097

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    Should’ve mentioned this earlier but after the 100th day I felt great mentally. My mood since then has never been better. Sexually however, I’m completely flatlined. My D has just been totally dead since day 10.
     
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  13. Mr Anderson

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    19 years into porn here used to be able to have sex whenever I wanted but it wasn't as pleasing as porn, dumb me didn't even notice I was on some kind of flatline but I didn't felt attracted to real women for some years thought it was normal for a 34 yo man that already experienced a lot in his sex life, I'm like 3 weeks away from my 90 day reboot no mo or pmo but I still have sex with my wife, less than before but we still have it. Noticed that for people with a larger history into porn need drastic actions to recover so I'm thinking on going hard mode, it's also important to stop fantisizing, looking at porn replacements and even trying to objectify women in the street by looking at them to see if you get aroused. right now sometimes I feel like my attractions are coming back, little by little but it'll take time for me considering all the time I exposed myself to this poison.
     
  14. ISOhappiness

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    What you said reminded me of a time in my past, always looking, always mentally objectifying EVERY women. My therapist told me that when one is with someone they are really into they don’t notice these other women anymore. I didn’t believe her but it ended up to be true.

    I can’t say I have the same reference point as you. I was married for 10 years and at 37 we separated. I got a new gf shortly after I am still so into her. That possibly propelled me out of my 300+ reboot struggle with some flatline (depression and anxiety) into a very successful sexual relationship.

    You are rebooting and need to mentally connect to the same women, be arroused by her, excited over non-porn style sex, and have healthy fantasies around it. I’m sure you can work in some kinky stuff but depending how damaged you wife is from your PMO and how susceptible your brain is to fall back that can be problematic.
    I am worried the habit of objectifying women and looking outside of what you got for arrousal is a slippery slope.

    I realized after my separation that I was never into my wife, she wasn’t my physical type and other things although she was good looking.

    Before we separated we did some therapy that some of which involved trying things at home around intamcy and it was good. That might be a good thing to try.

    If you can remember a time when you were so hot for your wife and her for you... it’s cheesy, but if you can remember that first kiss and it was fireworks than you have what I didn’t and I think that’s a huge + for you moving ahead.
     
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  15. Mr Anderson

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    you're so right didn't think about it that way, but for me it's somewhat different and didn't notice before because I didn't know I was damaged because of porn. I didn't fall in love with my wife because of physical attraction porn wouldn't let me because of my high expectations created by all those years of using it, I first fell in love of her person and attraction came afterwards, thought many years that I was more of a dude that gets caught by the person itself more than other stuff. When I talk about attraction I'm talking more about being able to appreciate good looks and not objectifying like I used to do before, I miss that part in my life that I thought I couldn't feel again until I discovered what porn did to me, it also has to do with my relationship I want to know how it feels to have sex with my loved wife without all that damage done to my brain. thanks a lot for the advice will try to do it if I have the time because our daughter and this coronavirus shit won't let us have some time for ourselfs
     
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    What i consider my flatline right now is a disinterest in sex. Emotionally blah. Lack of energy. Mild depression.
     
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  18. JI7097

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    At this point my only symptom is PIED. Had mild mood swings for a while (around days 60-100). Since then my mood has been amazing, but my D is just dead.
     
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  19. ISOhappiness

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    What you wrote spurned some thoughts in my head about the correlations between a reboot to starve the porn brain neuroconnections and the saying use it or loose it.

    Your are fairly deep into a reboot at 100+ days and I would think you have altered those old brain connections (from my experience) ... you don’t use it so you lose it. But that goes the same for getting aroused and erections. The adverse effect of not using your brain sexually. This is the flatline we talk about.

    At some point, maybe now you have to feed your brain some sexual excitement IF you want those feeling back IF you are ready. Retrain your brain but this time the right way. I think it will take a women in your life. Easier said than done but it happens all the time.

    I have guilty memories over these last 5 years of using P to jump start my libido. Convincing myself I could handle it and I guess to some extent it worked but on too many occasions it is a slippery slope. The point is when you starve your brain it does need to get fed again to live.
     
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    I had no prior sexual experiences to P at all, so I was fully wired to P. I have no intention of using anything digital (P or P substitutes) to get aroused again. I’m not quite sure how/when I’ll rewire. Hopefully it automatically happens?
     
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