For all the " Am i gay / bi guys ? "

Happyheyna

That's profound will think on that statement.

And one thing IMHO it's far easier to be a bi girl than a bi guy. It's unfair but true. Almost 100% of red blooded men like being with bi girls.

Thanks for your input in a group where very few women seem to go. Good luck on your recovery too.

 

Thanks I'm aware there are great challenges to being a bi male. I've heard many times straight women saying any kind of non-heterosexuality is a deal breaker which is sad. I do think non-hetero women are generally more flexible with this. I've also heard bi men explain their own experiences in bi online spaces as well. Being a bi female can be a perk to some people but it can also be fetishized. Fetishization isn't so great either... especially for women I'd say.

 

Sex with another person is fine, that isnt the same as PMO. In fact having sex with a real woman should probably help you more than it hinders. Feeling aroused all the time is normal and will go away with time.

 

Atomic thanks for the advice , the reason I was asking think a hard reset is no sex orgasm of any kind no porn and no beating off.

But like my whole life it usually doesn't conform to any known molds or patterns me I am one of a kind in good bad way.

Since my wife hasn't wanted sex that means on avg masterbate and ordasm 4 to 5 a day for 700 plus days every day so between 2,800 times low side to 3,500 times higher side since March of 2018 when my marriage basically became sexless. I am also quaduple whammy forgot I am on a PTSD called Wellbutrin and I am one of the lucky/unlucky ones about 1 in 20,000 have hyper-sexual side effects. I am one of them it's a dirty minded drug a first cousin to meth another dirty drug from what I have been told. Both are dopamine re-up take inhibitors leaving me with free dopamine which always going to sexual arousal.

But if I get off this I will go into depressive be episodes. I mean like 4 to 5 weeks basically rolled up in a ball sleeping 20 hours a day.

Again this may be getting off the original topic, but still bring it up it made me dirty minded and wanted to started watching bisexual mmf porn with my wife that lead to me wanting BBC in my ass for real after seeing many of these vids too which lead to sissy hypno which didn't make me want to be a sissy I'm too much of a beared lady to be ever be passible . But made me want to be fucked like a woman seeing them Sissy's ride

The sissy made me want to go out and suck cock and be bottom with men for awhile.

Further confusing my actual identity straight hetroflexible bi or gay .

But like what Happy heyna said acts don't by mean orientation the thing that makes me wonder what little concience I had when done randomly hooking up acting out felt bad about myself internal guilt afterwards thinking if I was naturally bi gay sissy feeling that it would be natural and guilt free like when I have sex with women.

Thanks everyone for input help this far. I'm glad I found this site and search gay bi hypno and this thread came up

I have actually prayed today that I would have the willpower to obstain until I feel better about myself and make the lifestyle change to begin sexual addiction porn addiction recovery so I can be a better person husband and dad to my kids D's without all this BS.

But wanted to point out not to offend anyone there is nothing at all wrong with being any oreiantian straight bi gay trans if that you be true and accept it. In my case that's what I'm gonna to do when I'm sober sexually longer.

If others think they can judge you because they think your oreiantian is wrong in their eyes tell them to go fuck themselves and that it's none of their business what oreiantian you are unless they are having sex with you.

 

Update a miracle I think is in the making I got a glimpse of how I was hurting her. And know my sexual and porn addictions had lead me down this path.

I said I really didn't want to leave her to have sex with others . And asked her to try if she could have sex again I would stop all outside sex dropping my FWB mistress not hooking up with a MF couple I had bisex with . And see if we could reclaim our marriage sex life again.

She revealed to me that she was sick and feeling better a bit but it was anger from this outside sex life even though she ok'd it that was causing problems for her.

So I told her I would cut out all outside stuff for awhile so I have decided to deactivate my Grindr, Tinder, A4A, Squirt, swing villages, AFF, ourhotwives.org Facebook Dating, Pornhub, XHamster, XNXX and Hotmovies.com AEBN, gamelink e,a Literotica VOD, BiLatineBiLatin men and my secret hookup Gmail account and text app will delete all messages. And close all doors to hookup too easy and close doors to porn.

So I can focus on my wife. We have been together and married 30.5 years. If nothing else will save several $100 a month. And one more roadblock to a quick hookup.

Day 11 no masturbating women especially are looking so much better my wife included. I am blue balled and actually feeling more energy drive last 2 days must be way more free Testosterone floating in my body without it flowing out 4 to 6 times a day ejaculating from masturbating all the time.

But still having raging thoughts of doing everything sexually gay sex , bisexual sex and straight sex . But one thing that's switched on day 7 or 8 even my thoughts toward gay or bisex, is I do not want to be the bottom anymore nor the one sucking cock still want to top and make guys suck me and fuck women . But now only want to do the fucking in my thoughts. Interesting isn't it my balls getting time to recharge and getting more ultra Dom again. All my gay bi things up until now in thought and action have been sub bottom. With men . Now after no M or O for 11 days. I do not want it to bottom in my mind and fantasies running through my mind.

 

You have conditioned yourself to be constantly stimulated, like a drug addict seeking a fix. Give it time, possibly a lot of it, and you will feel better slowly.

 

I think I'm in the same boat. I've been married for 43 years but 30 years of porn has driven me to being attracted to sex acts with men. I don't have the desire to kiss, but the thought of giving/receiving bjs drives me wild.

 

ok so this is a huge forum read, so I am going to read it but I wan to throw my stuff out there and get feedback, the idea of being in a real relationship (in-love, sex, intimacy, passion and all that) with a man is repulsive to me. That being said I am not interested in porn of any. kind young or old that does not have a male participant. not it females alone or lesbians porn. I am also not interested in strictly gay porn. transwoman, pegging, bisexual scenes as longs as a women is present are all ok.
I would think I am still strictly hetro but here is where it gets complicated, when I drink, no when I get drunk I become a submissive bottom and have engaged. I wake up the next day feeling ashamed, self loathing and disgusting. now this behavior has been absent for years as I was married for a long time and gave up drinking.
it was after this deviant behavior ended that my even worse porn addiction began to manifest, there was a period of abstinence, ( I was in love haahahah what a lie)

 

Yeah this is similar to myself and a lot of people I think. I have no desire for actual intimacy with a man but the idea of sex and sexual acts is for some reason still appealing. Same with a lot of the things you listed, its always "better" if a woman is there. For me, I desire romantic attachment to a woman, with the physical aspect of it being almost secondary to genuine love and affection, but with men its all about the physical aspects of it, basically just animal lust.

I've never actually done anything with a man (or a woman lol) so I cant relate to this. But I think all the alcohol is doing here is amplifying urges you can control when sober. If you are going to drink probably best to do it where you cant be tempted into doing things you will regret.

 

Yeah I get that no makeout all about the cock attached to body. I preferred mmf bi porn the most. I was sexually abused by several men.

But seeing a woman get turned on does it for me I guess. Seeing a wet turned on woman a little Dom leading the guys. Makes me somehow feel better about myself making me think since the woman validates it's ok by being turned on.

I'm a very Dom man but always thought my wife would lose some respect for me as her man since I wanted to fucked by a man and have several times. And I'm lucky my wife opened the door for me to do it in our marriage through bi porn she gets off seeing me at times. Not sure if healthy or not but when I ja

 

This forum has helped a ton thanks everyone. So I’m only real new to finding out that poem can be an addiction. My sexual desire is so screwed up. I had a job working nights in college working on computers. I spent hrs on end just watching porn. I’m 38 now and it’s always been part of my daily routine morning noon night phone porn. Everywhere. Driving flying. But now I’m finding that it looks like my dock has shrunk. There is no blood in it ever. The porn I was watching was bi and gay and straight and just really extreme stuff that I’m not even turned on by. I flipped through porn so long looking for shit (excuse my language) more extreme than the next for so long now nothing gets my hard. With my gf who is smoking and loving and sexual and perfect. Like the best ever chick I can’t get harder than like 60-70% with medicine. Can anyone give me any hope that one day I’ll get some life back. We are trying to have a baby. I know I’m in my head a ton but I just worry my crazy youth hasn’t done some permanent damage. Thanks in advance for any help. Sorry if I did anything wrong. My first post

 

Update I had one last binge of porn beating off. I jerked off 10x on October 12 or 13th. And I made it to day 8 got frustrated fight with wife and masturbated to porn 2x, then day 21 same thing only 3x.

Then now on day 62 so 41 days no masturbation

How long have you been able to go without PMO? From what others have said might take a full rebbot no porn, masturbating, and no orgasms willfully with yourself and partner s even. One guy said it toke 150 days to rewire reboot to get have f for his wife's body only.

I have set my goals to have no masturbating no porn but fuck my wife first 90 days on her terms then I will inniate again.

Do far got started 10/13/2020 got to day 8 beat off 2x to porn started again got to day 21 and something agitated me frustrated me fought with wife pissed me off beat off 3x to porn. Now gone 62 days 41 days without beating off. And my wife has let me fucknher 3x last 41 days last time this morning Sunday Dec13,v2020. The hatf St thing after I came it felt terrific but was tempted to beat off again to get more dopamine. I should say my dick is 20x more sensitive now. Like before couldn't cum from oral right before ready to cum I pulled out of her birth control and she sucked my dick and only took about a minute to cum.

I also started getting hard morning wood again think on 5 months be back to normal.might even let her decide when we have sex longer than 90 days since I have no clue what normal sex ammount of times is normal not excessive.

 

hey Man, don't worry about it, you can stop it if you want
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...fetishes-a-complete-guide-for-freedom.283059/
please read that post, It will help you quite a lot on your journey

 

On the same fucking exact boat

Not attracted to guys, dudes or friends. 0.

But could get excited with a dick, sucks a lot haha

Dammit, hope that nopmo and a long streak can help me recover, cheers

 

In my experience the longer I go on a streak the stronger these urges can potentially get, but everyone I have ever asked about this tells me that this is normal and they will eventually fade, and I do remember them basically going away on very long streaks I've had. Where it gets annoying is when its so easy to trigger yourself with as little as a stray thought or something, but it is what it is.

 

What a fucking hole in the matrix brother.

Let's just keep on pushing I guess.

Hope there is light at the end of the tunnel and that we are not wasting time lol

 

I’m straight, but attracted to transsexual or gay porn (or gay attracted to straight porn). What’s up?

Is porn making my social anxiety/confidence/depression/anxiety/OCD/bipolar worse?

I quit using porn and now I feel worse. Is this normal?

How do I know when I’m back to normal?

Does it help to view porn use as immoral?

Does porn addiction cause irreversible damage to the brain?

Why is the idea of sexual variety so enticing?

Studies reporting findings consistent with escalation of porn use (tolerance), habituation to porn, and even withdrawal symptoms

Why am I addicted while my friends are not?

 

It gets worse before it gets better but you learn over time how irrational and wrong those feelings are and how they never represented who you are in the first place. I'm basically healed. It takes time but its worth it.

 

This was definitely my experience when I was on very long streaks. Like beyond 90 days. Usually in the run up to 90 the urges are at their worst, like they are at the minute.

 

to all those who acted out on gay intercourse and didn't like it in the end, what pushed you to do it if it was only arousal when watching this genre of porn? did you feel attracted to men in real world and noticed just after the encounter that it was just porn messing with your brain?