Guys Help me out of here!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by RaXaZ, Mar 26, 2020.

  1. RaXaZ

    RaXaZ Fapstronaut

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    Hello guys,

    Age: 24
    Relationsship: casual sex 1-2 times a week
    Problem: Relapse into old porn habits
    Goal: To keep porn forever out of my life and breakthrough.

    To my story:

    I´ve began watching porn at an age of 14 and noticed that it´s making an impact in my life, since I´ve tried to quit and always relapsed over, over again. I think it´s not that bad actual, because I know that I´ve got lots of good stuff going on and I´m not really depressed, but it racks my nerves. What I´ve always missed out during the time was an accountabilty partner, someone who would keep me on track for an extended period of time. I´ve made it already twice this year for 23 and 28 days and struggle since my last relapse with getting back on a longer streak. My particular goal is to stay clean for 90 days, no porn. I´ve experienced already in my last streak the symptoms of the flatline and found many postive changes taking place in my body and thought patterns. All I ask you now is to give me your support, to be able to not quit, and make it to the 90 fucking days!!
     
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    Hello.
    I know that it might be hard to fight those feelings. I know it, you know it, and your brain know it. And he will do anything he can to actually convince you to take a while and watch some filthy stuff to get that precious dopamine boost. All you need to do is say to him - "Fuck you, no quick fixes!".
    Discipline is everything. If you will develop enough willpower you might do anything you ever dreamed of. Include ending with porn. I was determined as fuck starting this year. No single filthy thought in 77 days man... Just one goal - normal life again. Then I put my guard down and my brain tricked me to take another dose of that poison again.
    Motivatonal quotes from others are not enough if you want to reach 90 days man. You need to create to yourself some big goal. Who do you want to become? Just wonder that you could create some healthy relationship, be normal again and enjoy just existing! We all will be dead one day, so make your life worth. One day it will be too late to do things you always wanted to do.
    Stay clean out there!
     
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  3. thikk

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    Good advice from @BigBadWolf_27 . I think you've noticed one thing, the lack of an accountability partner... But in truth, the issue here is that if you had seriously made up your mind about change you'd have had a partner or sought some of help of some kind following a relapse. When you decide enough is enough you'd take a jog in the middle of the night just to stay clean. Many people play around and do partially nofap only to complain of relapses or benefits like pied relief taking long. Truth is they are just not committed to change enough. Because when the diseases start (black balls, vein issues), extreme pied even with porn, marriage issues, failing at everything ... Then all of sudden people's success rates increase. Don't wait that long. It's just a decision. And it may not take will power alone, but you can make the further decision to stop pmo by any means.
     
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  4. RaXaZ

    RaXaZ Fapstronaut

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    Planning to run a marathon this year and already signed up for it, and started training like a beast since start of the year. I appreciate the back up here and will continue this time and defy the odds, come out better,stronger and healthier. Guess you are right that it´s important to have a vision, who you feel entitled to. This makes a difference.
    Loved to read your thoughts on this and can just agree with you here. There was always an excuse in my mind to trick me back into relapse. This time I fully commit to it and enjoy the process. Keep you posted!
     
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    RaXaZ Fapstronaut

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    @Pneu Man, this is gold! Thanks for sharing the information it´s a splendid help to engage with people´s experience in this field. If we not carefully choose to what we expose our mind today, it chooses to do that by itself. By the way I´m getting at the moment a glimpse of hope and am able to cut through the BS and "Remedy" of mastrubation as I learn to understand the cause of the negative effects on my body and energy, as well as spirituality.
     
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    RaXaZ Fapstronaut

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    Quickly recapture my thoughts here:

    Writing is an art, and one without equal, as you can communicate in complete silence and without a doubt be free.
    Here is what I´ve learned from doing my PMO so far:

    The journey is very humbling and makes one realize what kind of self-restraint actions it takes to carve the wood. Anyone who has been in this, know´s what I´m talking about. A clean and sober approach to reveal the traps and hidden escapes along the maze are very important and a good instruction is key for sucess. Nevertheless I do admit allthough the riddle of if this ever serve any purpose besides being able to give my life the deserved and restoration to a fresh start isn´t clear enough yet. But it does benifit specific areas and establishes stronger personal boundaries, which lead prior on self-respect. Heavy shit which we camouflage in these times nowadays, but brothers stay clean and live a reasonable and cheerfull life!
     
  8. RaXaZ

    RaXaZ Fapstronaut

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    Yep, here I am. Yesterday I´ve mastrubated without Porn. My streaks for this year were, 23, 28 and 10 days so far. One could argue that this is just not good enough yet, but man things can get tough during nights alone. But yeah I´m still on my journey and contribute this log to my new found faith in knowing what I have to do to become the best version of myself, which definitly engages in retention of sperm and therefore avoidance of extra stimulation besides SEX. This is very doable and brings about joy and change from within. The one that kick´s ones mood through the roof. Happy to work on the sexual superpowers ehehehe. Enjoy the grind guys!
     

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