Hesitation to act confident because it can be lost so easily?

Have you ever felt very confident while on a good streak of abstinence from PMO, but yet held yourself back because you know if you go home and relapse in the evening you will be the total opposite of what you were yesterday i.e. not confident at all and people (who obviously don't know anything about this) will judge you? Because you are not as enthuastic as you were yesterday about them or in general.