how far did you get into porn? ***Warning: possibly triggering content ! ***

Well, at least you guys seems to have managed to stay at the clear side of the internet. It is at the dark web you really lose trust in humanity and yourself. I know I should have never gone down that rabbit hole, but curiosity killed the cat as they say. Dear God! And then you starting to think that some of the sick shit might be kind of hot at some point. Fortunately I don't visit those boards anymore though.

Fapping-wise I wouldn't say that I'm very extreme (preferably amateur or softcore for me), it's more that I get stuck for hours at it.

 

I never really escalated into really weird shit. The worst thing I got into was prego porn (haven't heard that one mentioned). I did look at some stuff I'm not proud of but it never became like a fetish for me. Just a phase...

 

I often ran into that kind of content as well. However, I never sunk deep into it, because I always found the term "gooner" to be extremely corny. I couldn't believe people unironically called themselves such a childish term. You put this perfectly. That "community" is fetishizing their addiction as a means to cope and even takes pride in harming others as well. It's extremely widespread on Twitter. I once saw a Twitter user with over 100,000+ followers say, "I'm so happy to see more pornosexual addicts worsening their minds!"

 

It was mainly BDSM for me, like

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spanking and bondage

and fetishes. I was very interested in this before the internet existed and before I saw internet porn or porn video.

Everything I used was free and on the "normal" side of the web.

Quite a lot of it was pretty soft really, even if kinky, but a lot of it involved hardcore sex. Something that might be important to say is that the BDSM porn I first used was in magazines long ago, and never showed sex. Quite a lot of mild internet BDSM porn is also like that but a lot of videos show sex too. That is escalation from the old days. I'm not saying any porn is good but combining hardcore sex with those things makes them worse.

I did also escalate. Escalation was also partly about how much time I spent, party about going from pictures to videos, partly about stronger stuff about degradation and then spending more time on that and less on the more basic mild stuff. I do think that distorted my sexuality. I was always very kinky and had a prior interest in absolutely everything I saw in porn but watching lots of it did make some ideas more of a focus for me than they had been.

In a way I think being into BDSM before I began internet porn helped me keep it to things linked to my previous interests at least. I'm lucky because I never got into the dark web and very extreme stuff some of you have mentioned and hinted at. Reading what you guys say makes me realise that was a risk for me.

 

I would say I grew up with normal interests until around the age 11-12 when my hormones started kicking in. With that said, I have always been a very curious person, as a kid nothing seemed taboo to me and I did some things I am not proud of. I got into cross dressing when I saw my Grandmothers clothing she left in her old house, including her makeup. I saw pornographic images when I was around 9-10 at my friends sleep over, the 3 of us sneaked to the computer room and googled images of naked girls; I believe that event triggered an interest in me that would awaken during puberty.

 

I realize people aren’t going to have much mercy on me for this one. But basically I had a lot of people around me that were racist and believed an ideal society involved segregation. I’m not trying to get into the rights and wrongs of that so please don’t respond and try to talk about it, I’m not going to respond. They weren’t bad people and didn’t hate anyone. Anyways….

Basically got hooked on IR porn because of that. Escalated to BNWO. Which is pretty damn stupid. Don’t quite understand what the allure is. I guess basically you have to be “racist” or have a certain veiw of black people for it to sink its hooks into you. Because the shame of it just makes your brain go nuts. It’s really not fun. I mean I still fight it. Nothing else gets me off so quick.

Not quite sure what the answer to that is. Same as the rest of it I guess. Just stop looking at porn period.

 

What you said makes sense. I had a poor view of black people growing up do to how they acted at school and in the town I lived in. They were loud, rude, uneducated, crude, didn't care about others, and they were the ones who gave me the most trouble growing up. I see the allure for interracial porn and the whole blacked thing, it plays into being degraded and inferior. At the end of the day it's just another perversion created by porn.

 

Ya that’s what’s strange about it. I mean watching two people have sex is pretty twisted no matter what. BUT how is watching two people of different colors any more perverted? But somehow it is to certain people. The real issue is the dopamine release in comparison to regular stuff.

 

I knew for long time I need to stop, but it took years til I understood to seek help.
In the end, the "most extreme" sometimes was gay and trans porn. As a 100% hetero.
Gladly, many lines were never crossed, always been cautious and stayed with the "famous sites". Even seeing unappropriate videos on Facebook or Youtube, containing real violence/animal abuse/..., were haunting me for days, so I inherited what would be the consequences when going to the Deep Net.

 

Yeah man, I'm struggling with that right now. It's sneaky how that functions and how it makes you feel. Feeling pathetic is why I want out of it, but now it's what also makes me horny for more so it's fucked up.