I challenge you to write one reason each day regarding why you wan to quit pmo.also a daily journal.

Hey there,

I'm tired of writing these post. Well, there's a reason for continuing this journal.

DAY XVI:

Nothing special. I'm anxious about the new task I got at work. I'm still working on my course. There is no way I could go back now. I've got too much responsibilities at work - I can't just give up.

Reason:

I want to stop thinking about what others think about me. I need to take a risk and go with it.

 

Beginning of day 19.

Reason for not engaging in PMO - because its a few minutes of joy followed by a long period of self-hate and shame.

 

Day 20

To be free

 

Hey there,

I relapsed. I'll use the rest of my energy to go for another reboot.

DAY I:

I need to work on a solution to avoid or handle triggers.

Reason:

There are a lot of reasons. Today it is acne.

Last Streak: 15 days
Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me

 

Beginning of day 20.

Reason for not engaging in PMO today.

Its very simple I am 94% sure I'm going over to this lovely persons home. Frankly the whole evening will be ruined by my shame and guilt if I look at a porn website.

 

Hey there,

triggers are bad.

DAY II:

I have to act fast after seeing a trigger.

Reason:

There are a lot of reasons. Today it is self confidence.

Last Streak: 15 days
Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me

 

Beginning of day 21 -

Reason for not engaging in PMO.

Because its the right thing to do.

Plus I can't believe I've lasted this long to be honest.

 

day 12 - no real reason, just going with the flow.

 

14 days no PMO.

If I can conquer this, I can conquer anything. I’ve always had an incredibly addictive and self destructive personality. Always looking for temporary happiness and gratification to cure internal pain.

If I can go 14 days plus without PMO, I can go 14 days without

Junk food
Booze
Gambling

Strong mental will.

 

Beginning of day 22

Breaking a habit of watching porn - one day at a time.

 

Hey there,

that extra energy from the last reboot helped a lot.

DAY III:

Such a busy work-day. All good I think.

Reason:

There are a lot of reasons. Today it is brain-capacity and -performance.

Last Streak: 15 days
Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me

 

Hey there,

focus and reaction times are very bad rn.

DAY IV:

Let's show them what I'm made off!

Reason:

There are a lot of reasons. Today it is brain fog.

Last Streak: 15 days
Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me

 

beginning of day 23 -

Reason for staying away from porn?

Because one more day without porn can't hurt.

 

Mastery of the Self is a good reason to quit.

 

beginning of day 24.

I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo emotionally unstable for some reason. No wait, I know why. I got in a fight with somebody I like over the dumbest thing ever. Honestly, I was wrong but so were they. I said I'm sorry for being dumb now I wish this other human would just own the shit they did and take responsibility for their actions. It takes two to tango in a fight and there is no way its all my fault. Thats not how fights work, in a fight both people are responsible for the shit storm they create. In a fight both people are equally right in their position and equally wrong.

Remember, own your actions, acknowledge the other persons feelings, try to take the perspective of the other person, breathe deeply and work to own your shit. That is the golden way through conflict. Its the only way and it takes two people taking these steps for any peace to come about.

If a person doesn't own there actions in a fight and assumes its all the other persons fault then they immediately take the position of pretending their levitating above the rest of us. Aint nobody sitting on a cloud levitating above us. We as humans are all in this life together.

I could never be in a romantic relationship with any human who does not take responsibility in a conflict. Which also means its on me to take responsibility for my actions and to acknowledge the hurt that I create. If another human isn't willing to do this work through conflict with me - whats the point?

Reason for not using porn today?

Because if I leave my house RIGHT NOW I have plenty of time to take it all the sunlight possible to get to the top of a mountain. That is if I have the energy. If not at least I'll be in nature somewhere.

 

Hey there,

I've been busier lately.

DAY V:

It was a busy day. I've even forgot to do my daily post. Urges - no time for that.

Reason:

There are a lot of reasons. Today it is attentivness.

Last Streak: 15 days
Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me