I challenge you to write one reason each day regarding why you wan to quit pmo.also a daily journal.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Help me out [email protected], Dec 7, 2020.

  1. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    I'm taking a day off.

    DAY VI:

    It's just in the morning. I haven't eaten breakfast or took a shower yet. I need to continue with my course.

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is mind free of PMO.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
  2. SpaceUnicorn

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    beginning of day 25.

    Yesterday, I noticed a fully clothed woman with perfectly combed hair was really pretty. All I was really looking at was her face and hair. It was pretty memorizing. I take that as a sign of growing sexual health.

    Reason for not looking at porn today?

    Because I'm really happy that I find everyday "normal" people attractive.
     
  3. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    I've had the same scenario as "SpaceUnicorn". The girl was fully clothed, could be the same age as I'm, and I liked her, but not in a sexual way.

    DAY VII:

    My performance and focus is getting better. It'll take a while for it to get back to normal.

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is friendships.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
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  4. SpaceUnicorn

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    beginning of day 26.

    I just don't want to feel "dirty."

    I hope y'all have a nice day.
     
  5. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    I'm half-way through my last streak.

    DAY VIII:

    Classical music makes me calm down - staying calm in intense situations. Interactions with others are getting easier. The tasks I'm getting at work are making me nervous, but I told them that I want to improve - so...

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is anxiousness.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
  6. PMOare4SoyBoys

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    Because PMO causes me to wake up at night and reduce overall sleep quality.
     
  7. SpaceUnicorn

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    beginning of day 27 -

    Because at this point I'll just feel bad if I go to a porn site. Like I've made it this far - do I really want to start over?
     
  8. Day 8 to 13
    All these days i was busy and was at my native place and as a result I wasn't able to journal.all these days kinda flew by but there were urges.at the end of the day I was able to controll them.tmrw feels like a new beginning for me from the 14th day.I was reading other posts on the thread though at times.I just hope that from tmrw on I will get back to studying because all these days I was having fun.Thats all for now I will try to write a longer post tmrw.
     
  9. SpaceUnicorn

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    beginning of day 28 -

    This is random but there is a show on Netflix called Lovesick. If anyone is still reading my stupid little posts then I encourage whoever reads this to watch the show - it is adorable. My favourite scene so far is when this blonde dude with shaggy hair finally sleeps with the woman with curly hair who is best friend but is clearly into him. Like for the love of all your in love with each other just accept it and live happily ever after. Obviously that isn't what has happened so far.

    Lets be real, the way humanity works is simple, you give humans a simple world with a simple task right? Here is the planet - eat what you need, leave enough for tomorrow harvest, keep balance in the world, listen to people who have been around for a while they know what they are doing and everything will be fine. Humans can't manage that very simple task then how the hell are they ever gonna go for that one person who is clearly into them and wants them. Finding love when it is right in front of us screaming to love us back is to easy for the human brain. I don't understand why our species has to make everything so complicated with relationships, the planet and everything else. Its all easy when you follow the simple laws of nature. Instead, like the giant naked apes we are, we go all side ways with but there is other person I've never met with different features. I know I haven't met her yet, I know I don't have a connection with her but whatever thats what I'm going to chase. And with the laws of nature we always revert to something dumb like "oh but I have a lot of paper [money] that means I did good right?" Meanwhile some God (or Gods or Goddesses) are floating on a cloud like - no this was supposed to be easy just eat the food, build a shelter and be happy - how the hell did you take the lesson of the world and make it all weird?

    Although to tell you the truth, I'd rather have a good mate then a lover. That is just me though.

    Today I have realized I have done nothing in my life ever in the history of ever. I have to work today but tomorrow I'm going to work on some of my goals mainly the look for housing and figure out my home situation.
     
  10. TheForsakeen

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    day 18(?), i don't know where i am going but i am going there resolutely.
     
  11. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    @SpaceUnicorn your post hit me deep. It is day 9 again.. time flies by really fast.

    DAY IX:

    I've managed to achieve one of my goals. But now I'm there and feel anxious about the new responsibilites I've got. This is what leaving the comfort zone feels like. I want to get better and therefore I need to leave my comfort zone. Also, my goal doesn't end here.

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is accomplishing my goals.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
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  12. SpaceUnicorn

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    Gwyn thank you for your feedback. Your doing great brother keep up the good work.
     
  13. Day 14
    I relapsed today due to damn strong urges.i was able to manage the first few urges but later I gave up.i do feel horrible right now but then again I will start my nofap journey again and this time try beating this streak and go a 100 day.I think the reason I relapsed was because I kinda forgot the essence of fighting urges because of the last few days where I was busy with my cousins having fun and had very low urges.i even stopped Journaling and meditation and to some extent exercising too.I will start meditation and exercising from tmrw on.also i will be regular in posting.after all it was I who created this thread and if I itself stop posting then whats the whole point of creating this thread.Thats all for now from tmrw on a new journey will begin with me writing reasons again.
     
  14. SpaceUnicorn

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    Day 29 -

    I dont know all I can think about is a long bike ride. I also got in my head the idea of bringing my stove into the forest for forest tea because why not right? It will keep me still in one spot for a bit of time and maybe if i go out early enough in the morning I'll have a bit of quiet by a river or a lake or something.

    For now though I'm going to sit on my floor and see if it brings me a bit closer to inner peace.

    I just want to be clear with you (anyone who reads these posts) so I stop feeling guilty (I dont know why I feel guilty) my personal goal is no porn ever again. As I've said, porn makes me feel dirty cheap and unethical. However, I am still very happy to engage in self-pleasure as needed thinking about whatever comes into my mind. So maybe my journey is pretty easy. In my defense I still watched porn pretty much all the time before I joined this website.
     
  15. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    I'm part of the higher skilled boys now.

    DAY X:

    Worked the whole day again - way to much work. I actually had a wet dream tonight and could stop it by willpower - those dreams suck.

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is to be one of the higher skilled ones.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
  16. Day 1/100
    Sup ppl
    Today went fine with a few urges.I actually feel that I have started this journey all over from the beginning because I relapsed thrice yesterday and watched a bit of adult content(I actually didn't want to write about this relapse and adult content part but by doing so I am just not being completely honest) .man do I feel bad about it.anyways just leave that for now.my exams are coming up and I am studying hard these days.i completed the entire portion except for one lesson and there are still 3 days for my exams to begin.i even did meditation today and will go to gym after some time.i went to school today after a long time and it was great meeting all my friends after a long time but you know what I actually felt kinda weird,guilty and sad when I was talking to my friends because none of them know about this habit of mine and I felt that I was hiding something away from my best friends and not being honest with them even when they never asked me about it.i was even having few shit images flashing in my mind for some time when I was talking to them.i just hope that I will able to recover completely and finally be able to say this secret of mine to my bff's and proudly say that I have recovered completely.That I used to do it and now no more.
    Reason - well I did give it already above.the hilighted part.
     
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  17. Abilify

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    I've been doing Nofap since February 2017. I failed so many times, and my longest streak was only 30 days. I really hope I can get to 90 days and even quit PMO forever. Reason: Why quitting PMO is such an urgency to me is because I crave socializing without anxiety.
     
  18. SpaceUnicorn

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    Beginning of day 30

    Today I was reminded that I am a high strung and anxious person.

    The moment ANY of my plans change I freak out. I don't know why but I am one of those humans who likes structure and order to the universe it makes me feel safe.

    The plan is to climb on some walls, possibly ride my bike and possibly see a friend for sushi.

    As well, I realized I have a degree in history I totally forgot about but yes thats true. I once got a degree in history. I like studying and talking about history. Maybe I should become one of those weird professors who is constantly ranting about how the Persians lost to the Greeks Thermopylae which intern created the philosophical and political structures of the western world as we know it or how because the British controlled Gibraltar and the Suez canal in the early 1900's they pretty much controlled the entire world. Point is I'm going to casually look on university websites at masters and Ph.D programs because why not right?
     
  19. Gwyn•

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    Hey there,

    yes.

    DAY XI:

    yes.

    Reason:

    There are a lot of reasons. Today it is yes.

    Last Streak: 15 days
    Last Reasons: Lazyness, self confidence, brain fog, aggression, feel happy, acne, friendships, comfort zone, attentivness, be number one, personality, guiltyness, mind free of PMO, get and appreciate a girlfriend, stop thinking about what others think about me
     
  20. Keep going buddy and keep posting here.soon you will get your 90 days of no pmo.
     

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