Married a cam girl and still want to have sex

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by grandstory, Oct 21, 2019.

  1. grandstory

    grandstory New Fapstronaut

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    My story,

    I first saw some soft porn at 10 years of age. Experimented in my youth with boys and girls, had my first encounters with relationships from 17 onwards.


    Every single one my relationships sees me quickly want to have sex every woman that moves.

    I went through 15 years of this, eventually having sex in brothels with high end hookers, taking coke, mdma and amphetamines to have sex endlessly.

    I found cams and would have sex them with my cam on, hours on end.

    I eventually married a cam girl and have not masturbated or watched porn for years, but now the urge is back. I can’t get it out of my mind. I cannot focus.

    damn it!!! I need to calm down... but my thoughts wonder back to all the wild sex and my imagination just runs wild. I want to be tied up and have sex, I want to be controlled and to control!
    This energy is getting out of hand...
     
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  2. NamaClature14

    NamaClature14 Fapstronaut

    What’s the purpose of this post in a site dedicated to no masturbation or porn?

    Why are you sharing this, do you have any questions? Do you need advice? Are you setting goals? What’s going on here?

    There doesn’t seem to be a clear point to what your sharing here that I can see other than trolling. If I’m wrong then correct me.
     
  3. Handzfree

    Handzfree Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    I gotta agree with NamaClature.

    Your post is definitely a trigger..
    How can NoFap help you? If your happy with your life, then I wish you well..

    HF
     
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  4. ⏳⏳⏳

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    I think he's trying to say he's having urges. But it's definitely tmi lol.
     
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  5. For sure man. Good thing im not as weak as I once was or I wouldve just fapped to his post, damn!
     
  6. Handzfree

    Handzfree Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    Yeah..... I can do some small editing so I made sure the post was labeled explicit.

    You're more than welcome to seek help her @grandstory. People who post on NoFap are looking to build authentic lives without baggage that's keeps them from their best.

    HF
     
  7. Get_It

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    I'm kind of jealous of this dude for marrying a cam girl. Most cam girls are hot.
     
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  8. Handzfree

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    While I'm certainly not applying this to Grandstory's wife, many women who end up in pornography come from sexually traumatized pasts. Rape, incest, physical abuse.

    Marlyn Monroe... the very first model in Playboy was an abused foster child.

    So being hot? Well, maybe if that's all that matters.

    HF
     
  9. Get_It

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    Thanks for putting that in the proper perspective for me.
     
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  10. Infrasapiens

    Infrasapiens Fapstronaut

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    What is a cam girl?

    I'm serious.
     
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  11. That sounds like you are sex addict.
     
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  12. grandstory

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    Just a follow up on this post. I needed an outlet to express what was going on in my head. I could always see a psychologist to discuss this.

    I manage my sexual energy by running and regular sex.
    But sometimes, every month or so, I get a few days where the testosterone/sexual energy/urges/ whatever you call it, just get out of hand and I need to brain dump. So yeah, I am definitely addicted to sex. It’s a matter or engaging with sexual energy so I don’t feel any guilt or shame, especially now that I am married.
     
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  13. kropo82

    kropo82 Fapstronaut

    Try keeping a journal here as that would be a good place for your monthly brain dump. People are given more leeway in their journals too, though it'd probably be wise to still use the spoiler tag for the potentially triggering stuff. Plus I think a therapist is a good idea, one with lots of experience dealing with clients with sex addiction.

    It'd be great if you got all the support you needed here, but I suspect that you will get a fair amount of "wow, you married a cam-girl" which is not what you need.

    I agree with you about keeping it authentic too, especially in our journals. If we just write the positive bits not the desires and anguish we feel then what's the point
     
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  14. You_ll_succed_for_sure

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    1. Yes of course, but they can also have other husband, cheating you and destroying you, be careful.


    Please make a journal. Thank you.
     
  15. For real. Even the ones that arent hot are hot.
     
  16. sparkywantsnoPMO

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    A woman who runs a live P show online. They are often “free” to watch, but rely on patrons to tip large sums of money to them through micro transactions. Think of it as the intersection of a P video and a live strip club. Considered highly addictive due to the personal interactions.
     
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  17. Infrasapiens

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    And people get addicted to that? It is a bit sad.
     
  18. I personally get nothing out of cam shows. I've seen those channels before and, to me, they are nearly as boring as watching paint dry. I don't have that particular bent. My PMO is based upon fantasy deprivation. I don't need cam girls, but imaginative scenery. It isn't even so much about the girls, but the interesting backdrops. Yes, I know, that's bizarre, but it's also why I like Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter.
     
  19. SanityOverVanity

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    Poorly worded response here, considering this is a website dedicated to porn addicts. It's basically the same thing.
     
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  20. 100%
     

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