My goal is to go as long as I can without PMO. The depression was lasting for 2 hourse especially in the evening before going to bed and it's like a roallercoaster coming and going , doesn't last more than a day but the toughts during my depression period were really negative. I do read, do push-ups and cold showers. I'm not sure about a relationship yet as I have got things that I have to get done and I think a relationship at this time will slow me down but on the other side I would like to have one but in the last year I've been raising my standards for women as I was together with a extremely maniac damaged women for a year , two years ago and now I am looking for good qualities in women and looking to spot the read flags if there are any and also I am not the type of guy that is a social butterfly. My goal is to completly reebot so I can be myself from a mentally point of view.