NEW 90 Day Challenge - Start on Sunday 22nd May 2016

Just started my own challange, but this seems good. Can I join from now on?

 

Do it up - we're all a few days apart here but the goal is the same. I try and check-in every day, especially where lately I've been finding it more difficult. Made it through the weekend though, so that's a plus.

If you haven't already done so, I can't say enough good things about the TED Talk that you can find on yourbrainonporn.com.

 

Took my final hit before bedtime last night, now I'm cleanin up and movin on!

Yeah, I've seen it. Great TED Talk. I've seen the online lecture too. Think I'm gonna see it again. Great stuff, explains a lot.

 

I've been thinking about it and I've realized that I started watching p when I was 13-14 and I can honestly say up until I started this challenge, I was very addicted to it. Even if I could go a week or two without watching it, I thought about it every single day and had time and circumstances allowed, I would have watched it multiple times, every single day.

I have found the last few days to be pretty rough. It seems like everything is a trigger and makes me think about it. I'm finally starting to realize what kind of powerful addiction this really is. I don't think I have ever gone this long without watching p in the last 15-17 years.

 

Wooo Fookeh. Indeed I haven't realize that until now... 19 days today... as far as I can remember, I don't know the last time it lasted so long...
And indeed, I think about it almost every day (even if it's becoming easier).

 

My brain is definitely in the process of rewiring itself. I am one of those millennials who will take 4-5 months to rid the lasting effects of what p has done to my brain. I denied I had a problem for years even though deep down I was lying to myself. A part of me still misses p and all the feelings that came with finding it, but I know that I have to regain control over my mind and rid this filth from my life at all costs.

We must continue to push! We can do it!

 

Good work Al, keep it going! Is it enough for you to have this routine of checking into NoFap twice a day or do you do anything else do curb those instincts?

 

Huge cravings lately... but I Keep it going!

 

Huge cravings today - I thought if I made it a couple weeks I'd be free but tonight was the worst night yet. Just can't get it off my mind! At least I posted here instead of giving in.

My brain is like:
- "You fought with your gf, so go ahead, one time won't be a big deal!"
- "You're probably going to be with her for the rest of your life, so what's the big deal?"
- "You don't have problems in bed with her, so why are you quitting something you enjoy? Watching p doesn't affect your life like other people."

Of course, I know my brain is spitting out BS because it's desperate. This is miserably difficult. I hope the light shows itself at the end of the tunnel soon! I feel like I'm in detox or something! (Been there once)

We must push forward.

 

But We are in detox.

 

Indeed we are.

This is quite a journey. Lots of peaks and valleys. Seems like you and I are pretty regular here - it's keeping me motivated. Hope you stick around. Also hope the others and the thread creator are still going at it strong.

 

Sup guys. I'll be joining you from now on! I'm almost reaching 30 days already, which was my first goal, but I'm already thinking about what I should do after that. Because I honestly don't want to do it just to say to myself: "See, I ain't addicted, I can stay pmo-free for more than a month easily. Stop making it look like it's something bad." And then go back to my old ways like it's not a problem. I'm pretty sure it's my scumbag brain trying to persuade me into doing something I don't want to.

So I'm tripling up this shit. 90 days it is.

Also I'd like to congratulate everyone who is battling this addiction and stepped up to change all these old nasty habits. I honestly hope you reach your goals and dreams.

Cheers

 

Great decision Maske. Congratulations to you.
I had the same problem with alcool. I didn't drink alcool on a daily basis (almost) but when I had a drink, I was likely to overdrink.
Once I quite 1 month and told my everybody - including myself - that it was a prouf that I wasn't addict. I was convinced of that. but after this month of abstinence, I came back to my old habits. It was easy to stop one month because my subconscient knew it wasn't forever... and it likes challenges.
But now, I've stop until I don't have cravings with alcool, until I fell completly comfortable with the idea of not drinking at all and I know that it's going to be a completly different journey. It already is. It's much much harder. but I'm really happy to be honest with myself.

I like your quote by the way

 

You're right Footkeh. The thread is becoming quiet... I hope everybody is doing well and doesn't feel the need to come here.

 

I think the difference between you and I is just the name this post is totally about me. Challenge accepted

 

Wwwwoooo.... It was Really hard about an hour ago. I almost gave up! I Still don't know how I managed to get through...
I made love with my gf yesterday. It's obviously linked... Any of you experimented that kind of phenomenon?

 

The weekend was rough but I made it through! I thought for sure Friday night I was toast. I know for a fact that had I had any drinks in the system I was done for. Thankfully I cut that habit.

I find making love much much more pleasurable and for the first time since I can remember, we made love twice in the same day!

 

@StraightEdge Yeah, I had the same experience last week. I had sex with my gf on sunday (3 times and it was great), but monday was so hard not to pmo. I managed to do it by being busy with more important stuff, arranged some meetings for that day and it all went well. But now I'm wary of the pitfalls of the "day after".

This post by user Aron is very informative:

http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/chaser-effect-what-and-why.5219/

 

@fookeh: I totally agree. Moreover I was afraid to last less time. But it didn't happen.
@maske: Tkx a lot for the explanation. I wasn't aware of this chaser effect. It was really amazing how powerfull it was. It took me by surprise. For sure, I never had such craving in my life...
Anyway, I definitly like this journey. I learn everyday about myself. I wasn't expecting that when I accepted this challenge.

 

@maske - Thanks for sharing that post. It makes me more aware of what's happening. I nearly fell into that trap recently.

I find myself getting irritable for no discernible reason from time to time and I know it's because I'm going through withdrawal. It doesn't usually last too long and I am aware of it. Tonight will be a tough night as I will be by myself for the night and in any time during this circumstance, I always hung out with my old friend p. If I can make it through the night, I think I'll be able to get through the 90 days without a doubt.