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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by MONSTER MONK, Mar 3, 2019.
Check in Day 3
i'm Lt. Colonel @MASTER MONK
Checking in for day 5
@MASTER MONK please add me to the list - I am Worker rank atm.
Day 10 check in!! 2 minutes until day 11 accomplished!
I didn't post in this 10 days cause I was in Poland.
New urge killer: Travel. In a shared room it's better. At least for me.
Day 38 Check-in!
Check-in counter: 24 - started on Day 15
Day 14 Check in. Tomorrow I rank up. How exciting! I think I will be running into some struggles pretty soon, so I'll need to keep my guards up.
Day 140 completed (aka 20 weeks!! )
I proceed, daily check-in. Good things are coming
Day 4!! Daily check-in.
I have removed my peasant rags and become a worker comrade @MASTER MONK.
I had a really rough start to the day as i slept late last night. The start of the day is crucial for me. If I start well, then I tend to finish well too. I will be sleeping early tonight.
my new lifetime record in a few hours (according to what I remember). I don't feel any urges or flatline/bad mood. I'm just happy of my new life free of PMO
Thats it mane. Thats it. Time to go...even...further...BEYOOOOOOND!!!
check in new day
I keep going, daily check-in. Today is my LIFE RECORD in nofap hardmode, maybe not totally hard mode (some peeking) but definietly no orgasm, MO or PMO. I feel great guys, so much lust for life and inproving it. Just being happy with myself. I've done tons of transmutation tehniques like chi-gong, tantric breathing, meditation, yoga and cold showers. It wouldn't be easy without it.
Day 39 Check-in!
Check-in counter: 25 - started on Day 15
Unfortunately, I have to reset my counter.
"Any artificially sexually arousing material is pornography." - RedPillRebooter.
I felt a little ashamed about how bad my addiction got and the shameful acts that I carried out. I wanted find people who had done similar to what I had done to make me feel better about myself. So I began to read the "Problematic Sexual Behaviours" section and similar reddit testimonials. Probably 20 tabs in total. Even though arousal wasn't the goal, I became aroused after the first 2-3 posts BUT I kept reading. Given that it's the 3rd such slip, I have to reset.
But, but, but I DID NOT go on to watch P, nor did I MO. I took responsibility for my actions, took the loss as best I could, learned from it and regrouped. I am determined to kick this habit and I will never relapse. I may slip, but I'm never going back to the man I was.
How can I prevent this from happening again?
Before I access the internet, I will create a list of tasks that I want to complete using the internet. When the tasks are complete, I will cease use of the internet. This reset occured because on multiple occasions I let myself roam freely on the internet. If I allow myself to roam freely, I'm navigating using desire and desire will always lead me to arousing material. If theres no list right in front of me. I can't browse the web.
I CAN NOT under any circumstances, allow myself to browse the internet before bed. I may believe that my browsing serves a purpose but all it does is keep my awake and allow me to browse the internet using pure desire. Adding tiredness into the mix and the guilt of staying up past my bedtime, I'm way more likely to do something I'll regret.