Reaching over 250 days: My NoFap Challenge and advice

Hello everyone,

Just to let you all know this post is a little long so bear with me.

I've only just joined however I'd like to talk about my own personal challenge I began a while back inspired by NoFap.

I wanted to have a go, and so I decided back in December that I would not watch pornography or masturbate for the next month; basically no PMO for that duration. If I was able to do so, I would buy myself a big prize for example a PS4 or something. However I was not expecting the challenge to get as serious as this. I'm still going and I'm eager to carry on to over 250 days.


The Challenge

Now from what I've read on the forums, the rule appears to be if one commits watching porn, masturbates or orgasms during the challenge, then this will mean an immediate reset. I've tweaked the challenge a little bit. My rule would be that if any of these three are deliberately committed, then I will have failed the challenge and it would be over. I've also added a few extra rules which are similar to the rules you use already. If I end up looking at pornographic/erotic images or videos deliberately, then I must add on extra days to the challenge depending on how many times I looked and how serious the damage was. For example if I looked at a pornographic/erotic image briefly but deliberately then I would add a one day penalty. However if I deliberately looked and became aroused, I would add on maybe 5-7 days. If I saw pornographic/erotic content by accident but went back to it to see if I actually saw something erotic, or if I tried to look away from an erotic image but ended up looking anyway, then I would add an extra day to the challenge. I should also mention that I have a foot fetish so images or videos of women's feet to me also count as erotic content, therefore this would count as a penalty.

After adding up all the penalty days I added to the challenge, it was to carry on until late April. This may be due to the fact I have been very strict on the rules. I also added on a few more months voluntarily so the final end date will be sometime in early August.

So the new rule now would be that any extra penalty days would turn into strikes. So I added the amount of days I had left and whenever I broke one of my rules as mentioned, it would mean a strike or strikes. If I striked out, I would either fail the challenge or I could add on more days voluntarily. I should point out I'm very close to reaching a strike out.

The experience hasn't been easy but I'm very proud I've almost made it to over 250 days as my last PMO was in November last year! And while I may have stumbled accross a few erotic images, I have not gone into pornography full on, orgasmed or masturbated. Well I think not anyway. This is where your advice and opinion comes in.

The Advice

One, I feel sometimes I have failed the challenge because I looked back at the images/videos I saw. Should I have actually resetted the challenege or do you all think my rules are good?

Two, I sometimes got urges to look at something. The other day I got an email from a porn site I used to go to and my mind said beforehand lets read it for 2 seconds and instead I deleted the email and was very glad I did so. However would that still come down as a penalty as I had the urge beforehand?

Three, many times I had thoughts in my mind about sex and watching porn and would get an erection. I would get concerned that I had ejaculated so I would feel down there to see if I had done so but sometimes it gave this feeling that I was about to orgasm. Does this to all of you count as edging? If so then I may very well have failed the challenge.

Four, this is a crucial one. There have been two occasions where I became aroused by looking at some erotic videos deliberately. The first time was in February where I felt I looked at a video of woman's feet so I went back to double check. It turned out I did and while I tried to look away, it gave me an erection. The second time was more recent. I looked through Instagram and ended up looking at this model's instagram account when I said I shouldn't. Whilst her page didn't include any erotic images, one image showed her barefooted after I double checked, so I selected another one of her posts and it showed her feet again. Then I got an erection. On both occasions I gave myself severe penalties but I want to know what you all think? Does it count as adding on penalties or as they were both deliberate, do you all think that counts as failing the challenge. To many of you this would count as a reset whereas to me a full reset means a fail.

Five, sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. When I watch TV for example and a good looking lady appears, my mind sometimes tells me for a second to check her chest out or check her feet out. Or if I'm online, my mind tells me to look for something erotic. Basically it's desperately wanting me to PSUB. It's incredibly annoying and I do my best to ignore it and luckily I only look by accident... or I think I do. Anyway, is this normal and more importantly would this classify as a penalty?

Six, my reaction to erotic pictures when they appear now seems to be good. If they appear then I tend to become disgusted and cover the pictures with my hands or cover my eyes. A sort of Hank Hill reaction. Recently some highly erotic pictures of models I looked at ages ago popped up and I avoided them. However I had to check why they did so. I did get a very slight erection however but I still was annoyed and disgusted that they showed up. Does this count as a penalty at all?

Seven, do you think I'm being too strict with the rules at all? I don't know if I'm doing Normal, Hard or Monk Mode. I'd say Hard Mode.

Eight, do you all think I have passed the challenge?

I'm very grateful that you've taken the time to read this. Sorry that it's a long topic but I really did feel like I ought to get some advice from all you experts. Also if this is in the wrong part of the forum I do apologise and I will send it to the right place ASAP.

Some of you may think that I have failed and if this is the case I won't give up, even if I don't get the prize. I'll still carry on to over 250 days. I want to prove I'm capable of continuing. I'm going to be strong and make it to the end.

Thanks very much!