Reasons Behind PMO Binges

Thank you for a very informative, non speculative and sensible post! I feel this community needs more of this. Once again, I couldn't agree more with you. I believe that a lot of people tend to view the problem the other way round. I said it once and I'll say it again: PMO is often not the cause but the consequence. People don't feel depressed or anxious because of PMO. They feel depressed and anxious and that is why they PMO. Trying to address PMO without addressing the underlying causes is just wasted time, IMO.

 

I get back to watching amateur porn. Silly me.... Then I experience Brain fog, confusion feelings, shaking, tremors and head tingling pressure.

 

The symptoms u listed are during porn use or withdrawing?
I have those now with 10 days pmo free. Can you expand?

 

Very, very good and informative post @Fenix Rising. Thank you for sharing that information and how it ties into your personal story. I can relate to all of it and I agree that most addiction is tied to comfort and the associated chemicals in the brain. My addiction has also been on going for 25+ years and started well before the modern internet took shape. Internet porn just became the gasoline on an already raging fire.

 

I was in withdrawals for 16 months hardmode after 7 years of heavy use. Last night I went to watch porn for about 5 minutes and some of those symptoms returned on the spot.

 

I'm sorry to hear that. This just shows how strong of a drug pornography is, you can't never let your guard down. Just quit it and get back on track. You know it will only make your feelings worse. As for me, the last year has been the worst year of my life. Even walking a few hundred meters has been arduous task sometimes. Extreme anxiety, floating dizziness, constipation, head pressure and tingling, I've been through it all. And still going through it. Brain scans have shown my head to be normal and other tests came out good as well so I guess it gives some sort of relief.

I felt really bad after a relapse a couple of weeks back, like my head was going to burst so I took some benzo's and I felt almost immediately 10x better. I was wondering if someone can be born with depression/anhedonia? I never had any ambition in life, even in my childhood. But I still get up every day, clean up regularly, eat healthily, exercise daily, but I've never had any true ambition to do anything. I just do those things to feel one percent better. I feel like a robot doing things. Right now I'm thinking about a career change, but that sounds too much of a hassle so I sit here, feeling horrible since my brain can't function normally at the moment. Reading two pages of a book is all I can muster. I'm surprised I can even type this text. But there's light at the end of the tunnel since every day I feel just a tad bit better without PMO. But it's nowhere near enough to function normally. Just enough to have basic functionality.

Wow, I just had to add that typing that text felt like an enormous task.

 

Yeah I'm trying not fall back to square one cause I don't want to go through all the pains again.

Similarly symptoms especially the back and forth constipation. I think the nerves tissues are damaged by pmo.

 

Remember that it took you 16 months to get better, next time it might take 24 months to get better. It's just not worth it as you might eventually die or perhaps live a life with a permanently damaged brain. This is all a new subject in human history, we're the trailblazers of it and thus no further research has been done of it. Better not to risk permanently damaging your brain. All the best in your recovery.

 

Fenix Rising very interesting post, I do not know you in person, but I do not think it is written in your code you born to be depressed/anxious without MO. Doing MO many times a day harmful too, that a serious addiction that can harm nervous system. I would not underestimate its effect. I guess you were playing fantasies in your head while MOing, that is the same as watching P, for us.

So we need oxytocin, that means more hugs, every day. Or a pet/dog. Giving gifts for others.
Somewhere I read how drinking water is connected to oxytocin receptors, just like when you fast from food your dopamine receptors tend to become upregulated, fasting from water, or I would intermittend drinking can have similar effect on oxytocin receptors. I never tried, but thinking about that.

 

I also don't believe that people are born with depression or anxiety and I have yet to see a scientific study that shows otherwise.

However, the more I read the contributions in this forum, the more I feel we all share some common traits. Many of us had difficult childhoods and/or struggle with serious problems in our lives, ranging from loneliness, to social anxiety, difficulties at school or work and so on. I believe that trying to solve or at least learn to deal with these problems is the basis for a successful recovery. Reducing stress/anxiety and treating depression will prove to be a major boost towards reaching our goal of getting rid of porn addiction.

For the last couple of days I was on a porn binge, waiting for some news that could either be quite discouraging or quite positive. Today I've received these news and they were good. I have not felt the need or the urge to masturbate or watch porn today. Coincidence? I think not.