Road to rebooting

Hi there. I am new to this thing and still trying to figure out how to navigate. I feel awkward and nervous about this but I really need to start getting serious about helping myself recover from porn addiction. So, here I go!

I'm female, 24, and started using porn and masturbating to it since I was around 13. I did not realize that I had a serious addiction until I stepped into college. I found myself always craving for it and would even masturbate secretly with my roommates in the room. Ever since then, I have been trying to quit but used stress as an excuse to escape to porn and so would always fail. I have tried internet filters but I would always find my way around it. No one else knows about this problem as I am ashamed of it. Fortunately, I have discovered this forum and decided to give this a try. I watch porn and masturbate to it at least once every week, sometimes more. I last used it just two hours ago and I am sick and tired of the bad, guilty, and disappointing feeling I get after doing it. So hopefully, this will help me recover. I am looking forward to hearing from anyone here. Tips or advice, anyone?

 

Hello. Your support is more than enough! Thank you so much!

 

Thank you. And yes, that's what I am currently working on. It's one thing to say that you're done and another to actually stop the behavior. I have said I would quit thousands of times yet would always get back to doing it. So I am really working towards focusing harder on leaving this behavior overall.