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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by primordial-saiyan, Apr 2, 2019.
I hope you're doing well too @AaronM
Daily check in for the duel
Head cracked, heart broken,
Dead smacked, out spoken.
Red flaps, doubt-holdin'
Eating your soul into a bowl.
Grow ol', heart stole.
I'm only 15, just a minor.
I know, I'll break free, feeling and looking finer!
Paralyzed, I couldn't move.
I started praying, until my soul was too.
Going to murder PMO, strapped up, ready to shoot.
Shout out to @IGY, hoot-hoot.
I shot PMO, he wasn't dead.
Four bullets in his f*ckin' head.
Still quivering, pour red.
Pmo, now gone back to hell, fled.
What happens when karma turns around, and bites you?
When everything turns on you, despite you.
I feel the judgement, and then I feel the resentment.
When I'm in shackles in front of god, for the presented.
That's what they want, they want you, that's why they keep.
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep.
Ever feel lost, as if you're too afraid?
Nowadays I'm trying to find my heart, while everyone is trying to get laid.
I'm trying to get to heaven, and try to get paid.
Ever wonder, what was that blunder?
When you feel like a God yourself, as if you can draw thunder.
Just as if the doors of heaven were closing, and an angel threw you under.
Ever wonder what people think of you.
Jimmy choo. Yeah, that mansion too, red or baby blue?
Ever leave your old self, without the old one's clue?
Go get it girl nobody can stop you
I did nofap and turned gay, fucking fake
@ThisTrainDontStop Welp, I'm sorry. I ended up not being strong enough to resist the demons at my gate. Fell to a combination of memories, staying up late, guilt, stress, and bad feelings. Should've went to sleep when I saw the first waves of demons. All this effort to battle this disease and I fell, feels like I ended up with nothing in the end. Fuck, fuck, fuck. Well, no use crying over spilt milk, gonna go back to the journey, hopefully not going back to the usual cycle of binge-relapsing. Good luck on your next duel
Checking in, idk what day I'm on. and idc either, jus wanna get rid of stupid addiction. just wanna bop pmo on his stupid head
Thank you for the wishes. Also daily check in.
@Saiyan123 can you set me up with someone.
That's the first due I won
@Turtleboi definitely dude. Not all progress is lost, as long as you pick yourself up and keep going. Remember that your goal isn't really a 90 day streak or anything like that. Your goal is freedom from PMO. Think about that when you consider bingeing. Will bingeing give me freedom from PMO? Clearly not. Good luck to you as well.
Reset date: 7/25/19
Yeah, I made quite a lot of improvements over this streak. I even consider this to be my most successful one(although not my longest one) so far. I learnt much about this addiction, and my methods had improved a lot(Can't believe I didn't know that fantasizing was bad until just a few months ago). To make things better, apparently I still kept some material progress as well, as my mother reported that my eyes still have some spirit in them even tho I slept very late yesterday(had to repent by writing the longest journal entry I had so far) as well as a relapse. Just gonna survive the very first days of this new streak, and I'll be set. Not sure if this is meant to be a good sign, but the very first day of my new streak is apparently the birthday of the god I worship. Still a bit miffed over the loss of my old streak tho, it was a shame.
Daily check in
Had a wet dream this night, a real powerful one. It doesn't count but man was really powerful
Anyway daily check
I'm always up for a challenge! And yes beaten a record before, in fact this is my longest streak. Never pause to look back!
@fg4795. Have a great weekend, for me it is going to be a pretty intense time!
Welp. Looks like I'm once again in the relapse cycle, fell again. The only positive thing is that I didn't go straight for the real nasty stuff. In order to facilitate my recovery from this setback imma analyze what I done wrong, and try not to repeat it tmr. Hope that my body is resilient enough to not get sent straight back to hell from these two relapses.
So, I slept very late yesterday, which is bad. I am also unproductive today, which is also bad(My analysis yesterday led me to the conclusion that lack of sleep, unproductivity, anger, stress, and questionable memories/nostalgia are my greatest hurdles. Unproductivity and stress are my greatest enemies out of these two. Weirdly enough, I didn't feel like total shit like I did last time when I relapsed two days in a row. Perhaps it's because I only did it twice in two days instead of four times in two days. Another blunder is that I played a fantasy game with females in it, which reminds me of my old habits(not good). Conclusion: sleep early, and abstain from fantasy games during the first week.
Day 3 check in
Back to day 0. This time without p. I’m craving to be with my crush, but I know that’s gonna be stupid for my life. Anyways