THE INTERSTELLAR CHALLENGE !

Day 4 - One more day until I am a Drone Catcher

 

Mean brother! Your mind is beginning to heal now I'm so proud of you. Keep going stay vigilant we are in this together. Thank God for his grace

 

Day 5 - Drone Catcher

I refuse to let others get me down from now on, and that includes myself. It is not easy, and though I have had a couple vulnerable times in the last couple days where I put in the search terms or started to touch myself (though never going further than that) and I stopped and reconsidered my goals. The last couple days have sucked, I slept most of yesterday and a good part of today, which is not good because I have a lot to do, but not finding the motivation. So working on that.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

And once again, I am back to farmer. I had two PMO sessions just 14 hours apart, and I am ready to move on from this permanently.

 

Let me share this app with you https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=app.remojo.android.feature.settings.MenuActivity@3daf664.packageName

Join this. Will be the best decision you make. 3 days free trial. It has panic button for phone and computer. If you are close to relapse you just hit the panic button.

May this be the last time you ever farm!

 

Hi guys it has been some time since i last checked in hear, and i have not been seriously doing nofap for a few weeks and i relapsed today i felt bad and wanted some sort of redemption..
Day 0

 

Welcome back brother! Stick around you'll be ok

 

Murph! Don't let me leave Murph!

 

DAY 1

 

Day 35.
Am diving in this wormhole. It's a whole different world this dimension where PMO has no hold on me. I'm finally free. By the grace of God I will remain clean and free from a plague which now seems so far behind. Much like the earth from this galaxy, it seems so so far from home.
Keep going friends the further you get from that filth the closer your heart grows towards God.

 

Day 2

 

Day 3 - Had some small thoughts of PMO or MO last night after a stressful conversation with someone who was in crisis and who was engaging in destructive behavior. A friend and I were trying to help him, but he was having none of it, and said some hurtful things, and then ended the call. I then spent the rest of the evening talking to my friend who was helping me, and then I went to bed. During that time, the conversation weighed on my mind, and I could not sleep, so naturally thoughts of my old pastime came up, but instead of PMOing or MOing, I decide to put on some music from my childhood (prime country) and meditated on that until I feel asleep. Then this afternoon, after finishing one of my finals, I watched an interview with someone I follow, and then when that finished, I thought about searching someone on Facebook. That was immediately followed by thoughts of searching this bikini model, and that I knew would lead nowhere good. I decided to take a nap, but before I did that, I looked up something innocuous, but inspired by this train of thought which lead to me looking into the Bikini Atoll islands which bikinis are named after, and that lead to me reading about the history of nuclear tests and what that has to do with swimwear. In the end, I was able to map out my complete tangent and how I went from thinking about relapse to reading about the atomic and hydrogen bombs. And in the end the closest I got to bikini photos was through my readings on atomic tests. While it definitely could have gone bad, I learned a little bit of history, and then I closed my eyes for an hour and then got up and went and ate dinner. I do not recommend trying this for yourself as even innocent searching based on tangents around not so innocent ideas can lead to relapse, but now I feel like if I can remember thermonuclear war when I am in a craving P-subs (which is my main relapse risk these days), then I can probably do well. However, in the future, I think I should just put my phone away because next time I won't be so lucky.

Fun fact, the reason the swimwear designer named his new two piece after a nuclear testing site is because he wanted people to react the same way when they same them on the beach, as they would seeing the mushroom cloud rising in the distance - shock and awe.

Anyway, goodnight!
Best,
Mathman1994

 

Day 3

stay strong pal

 

Ugh i relapsed to porn
from a string of thoughts to just a little edging aand relapse..
I WILL NOT GIVE UP LIKE THE LAST TIME AND END UP IN BINGE RELAPSE
Day 0

 

You've got the right mindset brother. We are not ruled by our shortfalls only refined. You'll be stronger willed from this.

 

Day 4 - Tomorrow I will once again be a Drone Catcher and this time I mean to make it past my longest recent streak of 1) 22 days, then 2) 31, and then 3) my longest streak ever since I started MOing, of 60 days

Best,
Mathman1994