The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Made an appointment with a psychologist. Not for another 3 and a half weeks since I head back up to work next monday. I guess I never talked about that. Got that job that I wanted. 2 years worth of work. 2 weeks on 1 week off.

Anyways. I guess the lady specializes in porn addiction. She can probably help me greatly. I gotta get over this. I think I will. I am changing at a rapid rate. After my discovery yesterday I feel quite different. Don't know how to explain it. I guess I don't get as stessed at temptations and there seams to be a new voice in my head. Not audible. A voice that encourages me to do the right thing. Maybe the angel on my left shoulder is back. lol Some healing took place anyways. All is good.

 

Check in day 30

 

2 days no PM
2 days no video games
2 days no hot showers
1 day no caffeine

 

Day 2

I am feeling a huge desire to repeat the last fall. But I know that this is not even the thing that my body lusts for. I also know that doing it might make me less productive and my day enjoyable and if I would continue it would definately make me less productive in the long run. So it is not worth it. I think I can make it.

 

Day 39 checking in

 

Day 7!

 

Day 6 !!

 

Day 34 no PMO. Had an argument with my dad and got pretty worked up about it. He tried to put a guilt trip on me and I just wasn’t having it. I went for a walk and it was beautiful outside and the walk really helped calm me down. No urges for PMO today. My wife is still out of town but I’m doing fine. I have one more night and then she will be home again.

 

Oh it was you who posted the Cal Newport link. Thank you very much, since I got some help from it, a new idea how to structure my chaotic days.

And welcome @I will win!!!
Good to have you in this Challenge, brother!

As for counting days, it's difficult to say if this is what gets us to stay clean or not. NOT counting days in the beginning could make the difference that we feel as if our streak would be longer than it actually is (can be good for motivation but no reality check). But when you make progress you need to show yourself how many free time/days you already made (for example: 75% in the last three months), because we it occurs that we underestimate our progress.
So I would definitely recommend you to make a pmo spread sheet.
I use a spread sheet where I track different good and bad habits at once. For example exercise or drinking alcohol, which can easily mess up porn abstinence, or drinking coffee which I stopped tracking after seeing that I was below 50% for a significant amount of time.

I wish you a good Journey!

 

Checking in with 7 days under my belt - the first week

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

113 Days Free of PMO.

Well rested today, a continuation of what I set out yesterday. A consistency in making the days count and tailoring your dopamine system to working for you with the goals you align in your day to day. Today I aim to follow meditation, exposure, workout, studying/reading and work on organizing certain areas in my home.

Stay Strong!

@I will win!!! I would take notes regarding success stories on the forums and youbrainonporn. Study nofap, just as you've spent so much of your life studying porn. Always evaluate what lead you a relapse, and develop a counter measure. Address your underlining emotions, do no let them sit idle.

@metamorphosed and @icebreaker p Congrats on a week brothers!

@Percy_Jackson+ Glad to have you back brother, nothing to apologies for. You were out there tackling life problems as opposed to running away from them, well done!

 

thanks king

 

Great points brother. Lot of thing I learnt from your post. Thanks brother.

 

Day 189

 

Day 1 complete! Some small urges but nothing i couldnt handle so far.

Starting:
Day 2 - Hobbit, Buckland, The Shire

 

Day 35 completed

 

@Redemptionisrequired @Baki Hanma @PeaceOnEarth108

Thank you brothers for your words! I'm glad to be a part of the fellowship...

But guys the other day, even tho it was not intentional, I watched P (because the reels of Facebook are pornographic). Even tho I didn't touched myself, I did M (by definition you don't necessarily need to touch yourself to M) and I did have an orgasm. So the PMO was there, I don't want to lie myself and you bros.

So, what I'm saying is, 450 days is my record here. And I'll probably quit nofap for a while, I need a change in my life. If I fully relapse I'll come back here in day 1.

Also whenever I can I'll write a 450 days success story...

 

Bro you just don't know how precious that 451 counter is, no matter what happens, even in worst scenario, don't break that streak, ask me how precious that no. is who barely gone beyond 25 days since a year.

 

Don't break it! The net of p is so tight that once trapped, it needs millions of tons of hardwork to get rid of it again, just remove or limit yourself from social media if it is risking you.

 

Thank you! But what you do when you get surge of urges after waking up from a wet dream, it's very difficult to handle that.