Day 5, still no urges. I want to be prepared for when they do come. The 7-14 day period is most difficult for me.
waking up in an aroused state is certainly a tricky scenario to avoid slip-up. But you will remember this lesson. So please don't beat up yourself.
Day 4. Again I will have a long work day til 1130pm, so I do not expect I will PMO I need to avoid fishing or self-seeking other subtle form of arousal, as well as unhealthy dopamine inducing behavior (such as binge eating).
Checking in brave Fellowship!! Feeling not so good today, bad sleep, and yesterday i worked til late hour, so i couldn´t workout, or take a cold shower. today my dopamine as taken a plunge in response, oh well anyway, when i´m off work for today, i will correct the things that i missed yesterday Have a great day comradship!! Stay strong, stay focus!!! 5th sheet for manual checking
Checking in. I've got a lot of tasks that I don't feel prepared for, that I don't like. Feeling under pressure and unpleasant. But I know I need to go through this. Still escaping in harmless ways. But I know I have to confront this and focus more and more, until I get in some sort of flow or until I simply have done all the tasks, every part of it. I know pmo is out of the question. Surfing the internet is out of the question. MO is out of the question. If I look at it from a recovery-perspective I could say: although I feel as if I'm deep in the shit, at least I'm dealing with reality. I'm fleeing to pmo no longer. Now I'm going through the pain. Watch me! Meet me at the other end. I'm out.
92 days. Occupied with work and studies, not much time for anything else really. Thank you and great to see you in this challenge again! Let's make it to 500 days.
I'm back to day zero with m, though it's about day 299 with p. And at least this time I didn't watch psubs either. That's been maybe a week or two. Onward!
another day with cold shower, meditation and workout. Had some urges in the night time and during meditation , and managed to get through them.
Movement I woke up, meditated and went to the park to do some movement practice, I'm starting to like it a lot. Then back home and to the gym where I did two cold approaches just for fun. Then all day studying. Sexual energy seems to be balanced, no problems there at the moment.
