THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 181!

 

Day 5

Yesterday before I woke up, I dreamt that I came across P or at least saw P. I said to myself hmm but this is unintentional. Then I was thinking & felt as if I started to look more I was going in the intentional viewing now...that is a reset. Then I woke up it was only a dream. I hope that is not in the future...Relieved haha.

And I have been getting morning wood recently. Possibly my withdrawal symptoms is coming back slowly. We will see but I guaranteed built up anger will come back again with this Semen Retention I am doing. On the way to Super Saiyan!

Don't be over confident. Keep Training Saiyans!

 

If that was the main selling point for you then I would say no More like 4K or 8K res on it! I know I would done that same if I was still addicted to P lol. Smart choice

 

Starting from 0 because of difficulties of the day.
Basically my phone got damaged from a fall. The buttons were messed up causing it to open in safe mode only.
I tried to fix it but instead made it worse. I started panicking that I'll lose all my photos.
Its also a work phone (I was waiting to buy it after the lease ends) and got anxious that people at work will be pissed.
I ended up relapsing. That sucked.
I stopped and will continue the day clean. I'll start counting tomorrow and will consider this a one off unfortunate event.
My resolve remains intact.

 

It was not the main selling point, but I got the thoughts right before I wanted to buy it too. Ye, and the monitor I was talking about is 4k

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

60 Days Free of PMO.

I made it to the two month marker. Because of the last couple of days I feel heavy, the ring takes its toll on me. Anxious, angry and achy.

Regardless, I mentioned at the start of this streak I would make the days count. I will do so in my capacity. The most important thing right now is to challenge the negative thoughts that arise and to observe the strong emotions. I have no intention of distracting myself and I have full intention of facing this. I will attempt a smaller level of exposure, deeper meditation and some light reading today.

Keep training!


@Revanthegrey Well done on keeping yourself honest brother, you'll surely grow even more this time around. Rise again Saiyan!

@Against_the_demon_in_myself I understand the anxious mind all too well brother. It's an energy burner and we feel that our only "off" mode is PMO. Try your best to figure out a way to challenge the ruminating thoughts and to halt them before they overwhelm. This is something I am working on too, by no means easy. As they say, nothing ventured nothing gained. Stand again Saiyan!

 

Day 40

I forgot to check in yesterday, sorry

 

Apology accepted.

 

I wanted to buy a VR headset to use with my phone for the 1st time ever, then I thought again. Didn't buy it. Better be safe than sorry

 

Congrats on leveling up!

 

Starting from 0 today.
@Redemptionisrequired and @DRAGON_ thank you both very much.
It's the altered stress response we have, turning to PMO to turn the anxiety off instead of handling it in healthier ways.
And indeed it just makes us worse off than not doing it at all. Substituting calmer thoughts or calling a friend would leave us better off.
I'll practice better ways of handling tough situations, one stressful thought at a time until it becomes the new normal.

 

Day 6

Something is keeping angry earlier. It will subside. I forgot what else to say. Well only one thing important regarding this goal SR/NoFap/no PMO. Once I hit my main goal, I believe I will never go back to what I once was. Just a feeling and I already did my part on others things earlier on my previous days. (I.g. removal of all my porn items.) Too early to say but I am confident now I will finally succeed this time. I know some people in here who first started never returned after their long enough streak. 30+ days streak will most definitely help me once I get back to it. Never know but 90 days is what all it takes.

Ah I was thinking maybe I should take my diet/fitness a little more seriously now as I am following my SR/no PMO goals. I am trying to go up to 90 days on my SR/No PMO goal. It's like getting ready for competition or photoshoot ready type of deal. Summer/Spring/Winter doesn't matter to me. I will get ready whenever I am ready. I guess I will start trying to lean down more seriously now because of this you know what situation (C virus). Having five gym membership because of this situation.

Life is not fair (which I always say to myself) and so that is why I always go "Super Saiyan" time at the gym. For regarding people & female attraction, I keep saying it doesn't make much of a difference on my SR/NoFap journey in the gym because I always get looks/stares from other people at the gym. I am different from other people once I step in the gym. Imagine if I am already in the longer streak. Super Saiyan aura will be more noticeable I believe I am not stopping anymore on my SR/no PMO journey. Onward on my milestones then on my main goal here. And onward on my fitness journey following along with my SR/NoFap/No PMO journey.

Hmm I will go off of one of my supplements after here today (Sunday) and I can go start fasting now. Not exactly IF but actually fasting how I used to do it before. Since I don't want to get too small and lose size (muscle), I might work up to 72 hours a week. Stop fasting a while ago because I was always getting horny during my fast. It was harder to keep my fast because I ended up doing PMO. When I first started, I was actually very serious with fasting. Then got lazy then stopped eventually because I always kept PMOing and break my fast because of eating after PMO. Shame, but I have a better opportunity now. I have this option starting Monday 9/12/22. Excited to get back to fasting!

One last tip, I heard from someone who used to go the gym and said bodybuilding competitor would go "hard mode" or commit at least to no sex. Probably not even MO at all. Basically, Semen retention. Not doing those any sexual activity for getting ready for a show. Hmm why is that? You know it will benefit them if they practice disciple through the days leading up to the competition day. Well that is my take because my routine is for physique goals for diet/fitness so just my input.

Almost at my milestone. Day by day getting better.
Ongoing to Super Saiyan!

Keep training Saiyans!

 

Day 182!

 

Day 0

Had too much caffeine and couldn’t sleep, so resorted to relapsing to tire me out. This happens every time. My body is extra sensitive to caffeine for some reason. It prevents me sleeping and makes my urges strong.

I thought it’d be safe since it was a weekend social event and I stayed up late, but even at 4am I couldn’t sleep.

I need to be more strict with caffeine and fully cut it out. It’s usually the main culprit for my relapsing.

 

Checking in Saiyan's!


61 Days Free of PMO.

Seems the symptoms have more or less subsided, today my intent is to do a small level of exposure, a deload workout, meditation, reading and work.

I've been really working hard on challenging the wandering mind and attempting to refocus it on the present. The wandering mind is something i've cultivated for a long time, which will require time and practice to alter but I am willing.

Here are some notes from my reading of Marcus Aurelius's meditations:
"Neither in thy actions be sluggish nor in thy conversation without method, nor wandering in thy thoughts, nor let there be in thy soul inward contention nor external effusion, nor in life be so busy as to have no leisure." -Marcus Aurelius

Keep training!

@Spirali I'm the same when it comes to coffee, I haven't drank any for 8 years now. It revs up my anxiety and just makes me jittery all day. I promise you, you can live without it. Rise again Saiyan!

 

day 293.7 days till I reach my long term achievement.