(TRIGGER WARNING) I DRINK MY CUM, WATCH BESTIALITY, SUCK MY DICK ETC

Your exams are in 3 days? Mine is tomorrow, I also had 2 months to study but I wasted it doing nothing and now even if I start studying, it won't make a difference.I have no idea about it and the syllabus is so huge that even 2 months will be less for it and this exam is going to decide weather I'm going to be promoted or not, let's see what happens.

And you too relapsed, I was removing my search history from google search and I've so much low self control that I clicked on one of the link and started watching porn.
Why our life are so similar?
I have to go to study now, have to bring at least passable marks. But it's getting very difficult with the thoughts of porn in my brain.
I wish you all the best for your exams.

 

Aight, that's enough of nofap for today. Yikes.

 

I can relate totally to everything you have done. Guilt while cleaning up after jacking off, risk of injury after seeing how much of my own I could suck and Cum in my mouth. Licking it up or out of my girl. Wearing panties and feeling sexy doing it. Wearing a jock strap and feeling more like a man. I jacked my dog off once. Thought I was talented in how easily I could bring sex into any conversation. Turn almost any object, beyond is intended purpose, for sexual pleasure. Lots of things to stick it into and several things to stick into my ass and my dick. I get excited of I see worn panties, used condoms, hear or see people having sex. Cuckold stuff, group sex, nude camps, etc etc etc. I can go on and on and love you I had some hard lines I didn’t cross. I’ve been in SA for almost two years and I’ll be honest. It all helps but there is no magic pill. Ultimately, is the Connection with other guys and beginning genuine connection. You are awesome to share here and very big step. Hats off to you. Or pants off to you. See there I go again, lol. I’m 45 and I’ve lost a marriage, a relationship and on the verge from losing another and tearing the family we have built apart with major consequences. I still struggle but I’m on a better path. If you want to talk I can give you my number man.

 

Have you ever tried to know what's the cause of this, the condition you described here from which we are suffering is called paraphilia, there are several types of paraphilia, transvestic(cross dressing), voeyurism(watching other people have sex), zoophilia(non-human animals), fetishtic disorder, sexual sadism etc.
The only thing we can do is to stay away from Porn otherwise it can get way worse. It's sad to see porn is ruining so many relationships and lives, but remember it's never too late. I hope everything gets better for everyone who is suffering from this, life is double challenging for us, But we can do it.

 

Yeah, it's hard to just choose not to feel shame. You kind of have to change your whole mindset, and that takes time. But shame is definitely an emotion that you want to avoid.

 

I gave one of my exam today and right now I'm evaluating how much I am going to score, I just want to get promoted this year, from the next session I will give my 100% to it. This Covid lockdown has ruined my productivity, I was a good scorer since my childhood and have never struggled to score good marks but this year it's getting hard. I hope everything goes well.
I will try to utilize all the time I have left and focus on my next exam and you too focus on your studies, don't procrastinate and score well.

 

Actually, I don't have my personal phone and I don't use my PC, I am using my laptop and I keep it turned on most of the day because that's where I'm studying and doing all of my work. BTW I don't think there is a NoFap app but you can use your mobile phone's browser to use it, I'm not also much active here but I do check it out once in a while.

 

My laptop's battery is poor too I'm also thinking to replace it but It's okay to do regular work on it. Try to buy a new battery otherwise it's not a laptop but a computer.
Build an App, Wow! You are into Computer Science??

 

Are you learning any programming languages? I'm self learning to become a web and app developer, In 2020 I spent my quarantine learning 3D animation using Blender and that was really cool, skill worth to learn and it also promotes one's creativity. I have realized that at that point of time I was less engaged to porn because I was so much indulged in learning programming and 3D modeling. I've come across a channel named "***" which I'm pretty sure you must be knowing about it and it suggests that to break any bad habit we have to work on ourselves to build new good habits. Getting through NoFap is the primary goal but at the same time we should try to improve ourselves and become more productive by learning and improving our skills and this also adds meaning to our lives.
Right now I've decided that along with No PMO, I will focus on my studies, programming and on building my body(yeah, I'm pretty skinny. I've lost a lot of weight past few years due to my super low appetite and excessive of masturbation and now I'm on my recovery)

 

You have made the right move but my strategy is a bit different, You can distance yourself from all these things but many times it becomes very difficult to resist the temptations when things happens unexpectedly, Like an attractive girl passing by you then you can't block that you can't run away from it and it becomes even worse when you are experiencing high urges. These are obviously helpful in a short run but in a long run this method sometimes fails. The problem is not in outside of the world but inside of our brain, we have been feeding ourselves high dosage of dopamines for years, now our brains are used to it, if we won't provide more dopamine to it, it will constantly send signals to our brains to watch porn again and again, no matter how many times you try to ignore these thoughts, not today or tomorrow but maybe after few days you just won't be able to resist it. If we treat this problem from the root then we don't have to do all these things. This has to be treated at psychological level, think of an example of 2 person, One who gets distracted by even looking at a provocative image on the newspaper and is trying to run away from women and his triggers, and there is another person who is among a bunch of girls who are wearing very provocative dress but still doesn’t objectify them and continues to focus on his work without getting distracted. So we have to train our brain in such a way that whatever happens we don't get deviated. And it is very difficult to do this, first of all, whenever you see a girl just bounce off your eyes to another direction(this is very helpful and this really reduces 70-80% of your urges), engage ourselves in work whole day(we should not sit idle at our free time), meditate(this is one of the most important thing for getting control over our thoughts and our mind), even avoid less dopamine triggering activities(like, Watching movies, playing games, listening music etc.) and engage more in uninteresting activities like reading books and studying this actually increases our will power and will provide huge control over our actions, in this we can rewire our brain. There are few more things but what you just have to do is to do what you wrote in the above answer along with what I've said here, in this way you will be able gain control over your condition both internally and externally.
This time I've decided to go on Hard mode because I know this short period of pain will give me sweet fruits in future. I've decided to Never ever relapse. This is it.
You and me are on the same day streak, on the same level and in the same situation, wanna compete with me? I know it's hard but it's not impossible, just imagine getting rid of porn and masturbation forever and all the benefits you would get later. All your dreams will come true as soon as you get rid of it.
And If you are in, be honest with me and now I know you very well. If you would lie, you won't be able to get out of this.
I hope you are ready for the challenge. #NoFapForever

 

Well minimum specifications for blender is 4GB Ram so 6GB would work fine, Dual Core CPU is minimum requirement but In blender for rendering graphics you can either use CPU or Graphics Card or both combined, so you can share the CPU load with GPU and it will absolutely work fine. I have even used blender on PC with 3GB RAM & without graphics card(although I wasn't able to render it) comparing with this, your specs looks great.
Coming towards, which is better Fusion360 or Blender? both are bit different from each other, both have pros and cons, Blender is primarily used for Making 3D modeling, Sculpting, Animations, VFX, Games while Fusion360 for Engineering Simulation, Basic animation and for 3D printing.
In terms of ease I think you will find Fusion360 easier to get started with and you may find Blender's UI very confusing.
But the only reason I would recommend you to choose Blender over any other 3D modeling software is that Blender has a huge community, there are millions of course of Blender on YT and it is also a free an open source software.
Sources to learn?
I mean you could not learn using Blender just by reading it's documentations, a video course might be helpful for you to get started, my favorite channels are Blender Guru, CG Geek and BornCG, you can check out their beginners playlist and follow along with them.
If you get stuck on any step just ask me. I think this conversation is going off the topic from the thread, so i guess we should discuss it on "off topic forum" or I'll try to send you a PM instead.

 

I used to do that years ago lol. Not all the way through though because I got too lazy and would just crank it. Always had a belly too. I just thought it was cool cause everyone I asked couldn’t do it.

and OP I’m sure there’s tons of people on here that have been here done all of that and more. Just get off the porn dude. You can do it!