90 days of "hardmode" complete - RESULTS

I've completed 90 days challenge abstaining from sex and PMO today.
36 yo - 17 years of internet porn and compulsive-bingle masturbation addiction.

Here are my observations:

Positives:
1. Brain fog / concentration problems -> improved but still far from ideal,
2. social anxiety -> slight improvement ( started socializing, flirting, dating again),
3. depression -> slight improvement,
4. self-esteem -> improved somewhat,
5. becoming stronger and fitter,
6. self-discipline -> improved a little.
Negatives:
1. Fatigue -> still here,
2. mood swings -> much stronger (only one step from feeling OK to feeling very depressed or/and anxious),
3. PIED -> still here,
4. morning woods -> very rare.

Summary:
As you can see, more positives than negatives, but to be frank, I expected to feel better after 90 days.

Was it worth it? Yes.
Was it hard? Hell, yes.
Will I continue to abstain? yes -> from porn, yes -> from masturbation, no -> from sex

If you have any questions regarding topic don't hesitate to ask.

 

Thanks... but path in front of us is steep, long and difficult. I don't kid myself I have achieved much, maybe only a first step to slow recovery I haven't read it, but I'll check it out.

 

No, and I didn't feel like doing it. 90 days mark means nothing... Maybe just a self reminder that we can live a healthy, addictions free life, if we choose to. I have done 90 days twice before, just to return to my old addictive path. Saying no to P and MB forever is the only way for me to stop this vicious circle of addiction. I can't run away form myself forever.