I've seen more clearly that I have had a sexual addiction with voyeurism that started when I was about 4 or 5 years old peeking through bathroom keyholes, then turned to school showers, magazine racks and eventually internet porn. It brought with it an unhealthy self-image and impulse to isolate myself from relationships for fear that others would dislike me as much as I did. Opting out of PMO has been helping me learn to like myself again.
52 days done and on to 53... Have spent a lot of time practising my yoga and meditating this weekend. It has helped give me focus and intention... Onwards...
Day 4 Ok, I think I am now on a better way. I organized my goals, this means my sport activities are paused for a few weeks... maybe for months, gosh I don`t want to think about how long this will take. First I must regenate about the wound in my mouth (that rhyme). then school exams are coming closer and the fucking driving school... The urges are there, but my dick doesn`t want, needs a break, me too, but my break is over...
day 16. finally after 2 weeks of low mood, sadness, weakness, irritation and brain fog, energy as come again. i´m feeling super happy, peaceful and energetic. let´s go brothers!! one day at a time!!!
Day 0/90. I relapsed Yesterday.. I don't know where all that shit came from, but I fell into the spiral again.. I was doing quite well, feeling positive, and all of the sudden it all fell apart overwhelmingly fast. I'll try to be stronger this time