Daily Intention Thread : "Today, I am... + POSITIVE AFFIRMATION"

Today, I am stronger than yesterday.

 

When I was younger I watched porn and fapped for Hours, and I watched Horror movies… In retrospect, I wish I would've watched only Horror movies and never fap… it felt good at the time, but it didn't give me Entertainment like good movies! It also ruined my character, made me impulsive, possessive, passive aggressive. It just gave me "the fap", which is like "the gap", something missing - no narrative going on. Fapping responsibly is very hard, and fapping is considered a sin by many.

 

a few minutes ago I searched for naked Woman Cold water - you know what I mean, Pictures... But when altering the search subject a bit, guess what: i came across porn… And seeing These unmoving Pictures, I am already worse off than before… I didn't wanna see this. I didn't ask for it... so one has to watch out carefully all the time. We get to see porn on the Internet even when we do not want to see it and just use a search enginge searching random Things.

 

Today has been rough!! But...I will stay strong!

 

Today I will be strong for others.

 

Today I learned that while watching porn movies we tend to simulate the physical Situation for ourselves. When we see a man fuck a Woman we think through this: how would it feel to fuck? It only gives us envy to the other Person being luckier than us and able to fuck. But envy is a sin. So it is better to not watch it. Also, Right now came to my mind the thought that I have not yet tried anal with a Woman. Only once, I had sex or got a blowjob and it happened too fast for me to notice what I did wrong that it came that way. Once I got lucky, but while doing that I thought to myself: It's not so important after all... or it depends to me more that I am with the Right Person than the physical Feeling of it, which to me as a stoic feels empty and not so important… In reality Fapping to porn takes away from life's joys and it is definitely better not knowing what will happen next or what you feel… the porn Actor feels all Kind of different bodily sensations coming from the Beautiful Woman he has, while we sit in the room and only feel the same "fap, fap, fap". I don't wanna feel the fap any more, every stroke is the same. I can resist. I don't Need this monotonous ever repeating Sensation. I am fed up with Always the same. I want new, I want better… If I ever find a Woman who lets her ass be fucked by me, while doing it it might well happen that I will notice that it's also not so important after all... My issues were different from the Problems that I thought I have. I Always thought: having Sex will solve all Problems. In reality, even having real sex will only give us plenty of other Problems we didn't have when being alone. Fapping to porn really outnumbers the Problem again that having sex with someone else has… Having Sex in a relationship takes time, fapping to porn takes less time but is bad for cognition and takes time we Need to study or Sleep... Maybe I take myself a girlfriend in a few years and I might as well Keep her for a while. But I am not happy any more, and I never will be happy thanks to the existence and the omnipresence of the Evil of porn, war, sexism, racism, destruction, not being vegan, etc.

 

Today, I am not giving in.

 

Well, that is good. Did anyone read my post?

 

that's why i tried those DNS thing blocking p yesterday, but none worked for my phone.. guess i just have to control myself.. which is hard cuz ur mind is like numb

 

Today so far cuz there is still an afternoon&evening to go and am home, i am zen... may that continue til night!

 

Yea over time WE will learn to Not watch IT! No Problem... Porn has done enough damage... My university Performance was fucking Bad when I first started 2009 and 2012! why? I Just watched porn and fapped and wasnt interested in studying so much cause of that.. but that is Bad. We should Limit the time doing that or resist altogether. If I only knew This earlier!

Today No porn because my right back shoulder Plate Hurts from Sitting for too long in Front of a Computer today and Not doing Sports. IT gets stiff and Hurts.

 

Today I will remember what I want from life.

 

today i am happy cuz i was clean yesterday, so today too i am holding on that happiness

 

I feel good today. Better than I have in a good while. Gonna hold onto this feeling for as long as possible!

 

Today I will learn how to turn to something different than Porn while being in a bad mood.

 

I wanna fucking fap to porn but I dont today... Why I do Not know. Cause of This Community

 

I have to confess that I had a fallback, a setback, end of my streak...
I relapsed. I think I now know that I am an addict. I reduced the amount of porn and fapping tremendously, I suffer a bit cause of it...

My tip for my future self: Don't even watch it, don't throw a glimpse… These movies shouldn't interest you. I had to watch a movie that place in France for a Course... after that I searched for French vintage porn… I knew it could make me relapse but I just wanted to view it shortly… Damnit. All the Advantages...

Once again for me: NOFAP.

I wanna thank Alexander Rhodes for starting this site. I feel weak that I couldn't hold on for my aim of "Always" or at least "two weeks"...

It's definitely better for concentration and mood to not masturbate, and not watch porn at all... for years to come that is my objective… Maybe I try to become a vegan one day.

 

No porn tomorrow because...

now that I relapsed to Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm
I see that this is just keeping the Body healthy…
But the mind, but the study must resist to become better...
There is really something to this ancient dichotomy from medieval times.

Now that I relapsed
I feel paradoxically dissatisfied (discontent!) when the rest of the day I was joyful and happy.
I feel tearful (weepy) even tough the rest of the day I made great jokes and giggled around.
I am disappointed in myself, when the rest of the day I was proud of myself.

There is Always a whitewash (supterfuge, excuse) for making this one next fap to whatever porn you like... But all porn worldwide, no matter the time it has been made or where it Comes from. It is just one step above Prostitution.

Last week I saw Beautiful movies, went to Uni, went Training and did a good Job at work… now all of that is gone, and why? Because of PMO... I just can try to do the best that I can from tomorrow on again and resist for as Long as I can… Plus I want to confess my sins to a priest tomorrow… Sad day for me.

Cheer me up, guys.

 

I will not pmo today because I’m working on quitting this sinful nature

 

Today I am staying on the path of light