Hi haven’t been on here for a while . Currently doing well since my girlfriend back . Need to address how to not revert back to p and m when she goes away otherwise still living a double life . Reality is hard and fantasy seems like such an easy escape
Daily check in: Did not exercise today. Spent time with friends and wife instead. No recovery. No ACT work. No flirtation. I was tempted late tonight. I need to stay sober and take action tomorrow.
Did 35 mins exercise 40 mins recovery and act book No flirting Been a nice weekend connecting with wife
I slipped today. I said “I’ll just look at Instagram and jerk off.” I let o and Instagram be acceptable but then when it wasn’t enough I went further, all on my computer from work. I felt anxious all day and started planning before my wife left to go to book club. I exercised for 45 minutes and did my ACT book today.
Welcome to the new members! I'm feeling less sick theses days so I'm doing my routine as before. I'm happy about that It's okay man, one day we will be free from this! Have a good day
Daily check in: Worked late No exercise No recovery time Flirtatious in my communications and should have stopped feeling anxious over an upcoming project
What's up guys I relapsed yesterday but I feel like I'm improving I'm really looking forward to progress in the step 4 I'm doing right now and to wake up early
Haven’t been on the site since early March. Had to close my office for a month due to the pandemic. All the free time, anxiety, and depression did a number on my sobriety. My addiction hasn’t been this bad in a long time. I’m married and I’m back at work seeing clients again but I realized tonight that I’m feeling really lonely. I don’t have any real close friends in the city that I live in. I can’t see my therapist in person. And my shame has been so bad that I haven’t felt like coming here to post. Coming into the pandemic I had the best streak of my life going. Anyways tonight I decided fuck it I’m logging back in and starting over. I need accountability and fellowship.
Thanks for the tag. Hadn’t been here in awhile. I actually made it just short of 4 months before the Covid nightmare. I just reset my counter to zero. Please drop me to the bottom.
Congratulations man. You did a great job getting to 4 months. Really outstanding! I know you don’t feel it now but give yourself credit for those 4 months. Is there anything you can do to help with loneliness? They say loneliness is the root of this addiction.
4 months is amazing, congratulations! I've been feeling lonely too theses days, specially during the quarantine here (which is over since middle of May). I'm finally going to see my friends this Sunday, it's been months since I haven't seen them. I also would like to join groups or masterminds
Thanks man I really appreciate the kind words. It’s hard to remember how good things were. Those four months of sobriety were really good. I know I can get back there.
Check in I skipped the last few days as I worked long days at work. This weekend I will spend time on my act book and doing recovery I will also exercise this weekend
I like to join and need to accountable. I worry however, I get carried away and take a champion cup and try to sell it afterwards.
Day 201! A new level of self discipline is present. i am able to decide and do things much easier. Last week i Doubled my morning meditation. Was able to take the high road in a relationship conflict and was able to do the right thing that my soul wanted me to do - instead of my ego which was so hard but through Gods grace i was able to do it. Today i was able to pay back to my last 2 friends who i owed money to and i am now free from all those payments and debts deeply grateful as I have more money and prosperty than i had in years feeling very balanced and humbled. I am praying that i contineu to remain humble and be able to keep a life of prayer and contineu with my top 10 disciplines as well as taking the sunday off for silence and prayer. May all of us be free from the tyranny of our own selfishness and selfish desires.