Nofap BOOTCAMP ; NO PMO/ HELL Mode [Open]

Sounds good to me

 

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Fapstronautics. I made this subject name. A study of nofap science. Today covered the difference between slow and fast recovery. It's just different routines. But it makes the big difference.
Philosophy as respected.
Training excercised. All clear.
Rtb.

 

27 checking in
Hell days.
But tomorrow my work will have his party.
My degree is coming. Proud.

 

5289 reporting,

Fapstronautics. Today covered two mistakes that newbies have; quitting but not learning, quitting but not training. Either way is going to relapse.
Today also faced a challenge. There's a triggering display link down the page I was reading. I got up and washed my hands, and read some newly developed fapstronautics. Bravo.
Philosophy as respected.
Worked too.
Probably not much time for family, but will attempt.
All clear. Had another awsome
Silence.

 

Day 0
I kinda expected it.. Giving a bit into demons slowly...
I tried fighting but every time I thought was loosing and the demon was coming back at me stronger till I crumbled I realized I am a very bad addict..
I have to fight to train..

It is just me vs dopamine
All other factors are settled

That guy is really apologetic..
I had posted some cryptic heartbreak quote and I guess one of my friends passed it to him
And today he reached me out via text msg about uni stuff and all..
To basically check on how I was feeling indirectly
I acted normal.. I feel nothing for him..
Nor will I ever..
I cannot tell him my pain that he caused me.. His sorry doesn't work on my addition even though it is helping my underlying issues a lot .. I have to fight myself fight for what I want, the life I dream of

I feel he feels bad but I could be wrong
And some of my toxic friends as well..
Trying to strike conversations with me in whatsapp class group..
The same ones that were not responding to my texts when I needed them the most.. And we're hurtful on my weak times
Irony
I hate them chameleons...

There is one sweet guy friend of mine.. He really encourages me to study and is extremely helpful and respectful..
He knows that I am depressed but doesn't know the cause..
He sends me funny videos hoping it will make me laugh but I cannot smile
He sends my his academic performance hoping I will study or inspire to study but I can do nothing..
I hope I can tell him that he cannot fix me I need to get fixed myself..

So things emotional have been going good with me and right now I have to focus in getting my chemicals back on track
Which I can hopefully

 

Never fight the fight you can't win. Sometimes you need to retreat to where you can defend. You saw what I did? I didn't fight back, but washed my hands and read. I don't believe there's a bad addict, but a bad "cyclist." Figure out your patterns and get to the right track!

 

Day 3 check-in.
I’ll be back to visit this thread tomorrow and give another post!

Over and out!

 

Checking
I've been struggling checking since I was short on time, and also servers was slow.
A bad combination.
I am doing really good.
I had my party. I controlled alcohol.
Now I am going back to the complete hell mode

 

Day 78 (I think)

My one job was finished yesterday, now busy finishing another one. Zero exercise this week. Urges are quite strong but still no relapse.

 

Not so different.

 

Checking for day 31.
Hell mode is back again.
9 minutes of phone today.
Heard some extra lectures.
2020 has been great for me until now.
2021 will be better.

 

5298 Reporting,

Fapstronautics. Different types of relapses; emotional, spouse, triggered...The truth behind the scene. Over 100 days relapsed case.
Philosophy tested. Very good score.
Bz related stuffs read.
Very nice again.
Altho having a sleeping problem. I need to add walking time. Just running is not helping.
Make tomorrow great again.

 

Reporting day 80.

New work assignment. Also two more potential clients. This freelance thing is getting out of control... I just wanted a bit of money until I find a real job lol. But more work = less boredom that may lead to MO.

Also acquiring new cooking skills by making things from scratch. I love making stuff myself. So satisfying. My method of selfcare.

 

Reporting day 32.
Hell mode is back.
Trained, studied, worked.
10 minutes of phone.

 

5301 reporting,

Fapstronautics. Case studied a heart attack like symptom after a relapse.
Philosophy. Not so much progress today. But at least studied. Bz too.
Worked. So many projects. I need priority.
My first week of not being able to awake early. I need to reactivate the clock. Excersise time has greatly reduced. And efficiency too.
Other than that, great day as promised.
I see a yellow flag here. Stay clean fellas.

 

Day 33 checking
Almost done with all meditations.
Really proud of it.
They helped.
Phone 11 minutes.

 

5304 reporting,

Fapstronautics. 200 days relapsed case.
Worked.
Watched the debate. Nice show.
Still have much to improve. But for now, will increase a little more family time.