Starting again. Day 0/90. Relapsed after a streak of 12 days. My exams are approaching, so I decided to get some studying done. But ended up jerking off to porn 30 minutes in. Feeling ashamed.
Day 0 again!!!!!. Had some leakage on this day. Thought too much about that and relapsed in shower. This must and will be the last time I relapse. I don't want that shitty feeling again.
But for now I'm totally collapsed. P streak goes on . Haven't watched them in months. But this M and O is too hard to handle. Haven't exercised ( i know i said this on my prev attempt too). Lately having suicidal thoughts too . I'm trying and failing every time( For last 6 months). This time it's too much emotions. Sorry for letting you down bros, will fight on. And i will not binge.