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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
Starting again. Day 0/90.
Relapsed after a streak of 12 days. My exams are approaching, so I decided to get some studying done. But ended up jerking off to porn 30 minutes in. Feeling ashamed.
Day 0 again!!!!!. Had some leakage on this day. Thought too much about that and relapsed in shower. This must and will be the last time I relapse. I don't want that shitty feeling again.
But for now I'm totally collapsed. P streak goes on . Haven't watched them in months. But this M and O is too hard to handle. Haven't exercised ( i know i said this on my prev attempt too). Lately having suicidal thoughts too . I'm trying and failing every time( For last 6 months). This time it's too much emotions. Sorry for letting you down bros, will fight on. And i will not binge.
Daily check-in. On day 83.
on day 3.
I almost relapsed today. I managed to stop it just in time, but I did watch it.
That's a restart.
Day 61 check in !
2/90 - Slowly building. Moving forward!
Had a few close calls but I'm back on track
check in. day 4/90
Day 63/90. Frustrating morning. I keep my calm and move on.
Spring break is ending and schools's coming in again, been letting a lot of things slide recently
I need become more strict with myself, I can feel my mind beginning to rationalize certain behaviors that are just not ok
I have the discipline, I just need a more clear way of thinking through these things
Other then that, I feel overwhelming self-confidence whenever I am not dragged down by PMO behavior
If I can master this part of myself then I can anything I put my mind to, I feel like I can move mountains
Day 39/90 . Spend time with my friends .
Day 0... Dang it. I can control myself almost always, but when I'm getting ready to go to bed or just waking up, I intentionally try to shut down the "rational" or conscious side of my brain (through activities like reading or prayer or just clearing my mind), so the urges don't have the blocks in their way that my conscious mind has set up. What can I do to stop this, even when I'm not fully conscious? Is there a way? Or should I even count masturbating when half asleep as a reset? I'm just really frustrated today.
I came home last night and was scared because I relapsed once on day 27. Do I switched internet off. Prepared some to eat. Then went to bed 1 hour earlier than usual. I live to fight another day.
Great work everyone.
On at my 10/90 .everything is improving .No more stress.
Done with 60 days challenge! Now im up for this! 0/90
Checking in Saturday. Man the urges have been really difficult for the past few days. My sex drive has gone super high. Day 82