Insomnia can cause some serious urges, I know how you feel. Not much to do at night, especially when you're not alone, and lying there just adds fuel to the fire. Kudos for taking that shower, that's the spirit!
Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 16/258 Days Longest streaks 67 (2015) and 51 (2019) Current Challenge 10/90 Day 81 weight training (3X/wk) Day 22 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sweets - 1/9th of challenge done and still feeling emotionally strong towards no PMO - hope it lasts and this streak continues - your brother in this struggle
sorry to hear that bro. unfortunately life doesn´t care if we´re on a reboot ordeal. life will go on with it´s joy´s and pain´s as always. we can´t stray away from the world during 90 days, like a monastery retreat, nop, we got to deal with life as it is. the good, the bad and the ugly (pmo). you should embrace the pain bro. stay with the pain, not numb it or distract yourself from it. a techique called "letting go" which is used in mindfulness and spirituality. in detail: you recognize there´s a strong feeling in you. and you stop, close your eyes, and BE with the feeling. just be. don´t try to change it, don´t judge it, don´t make it go away. just pay attention to it, BE with it. then slowly the sensation will become subtler and subtler. that´s the proper way to deal with hard feelings. also i recommend that you meditate daily, it´s great to create emotional balance.
I am losing myself. Every time I fap I lose all my experience. Now i can keep up long streak only after binging. I need to deal with this or its going to eat all my life. This last time I have ever fap. From now on i will complete this thing and never to relapse again. It's now or never. Day 0/90
starting from now, today i am going to take this 90 days challenge..this is my first long days challenge.. i have completed 30 days challenge before.
Day 27 / 90 In control of body and mind. Be aware of everything you do and think. Reaffirm your commitment every day.
I bought the book Letting Go which you suggested. Started reading it this morning. So far so good. Thanks.
Starting on 3rd month tomorrow. Was dealing with sexual thoughts and urges last week, but they subsided and went away. Like most things in life, they rise and fall, like ocean waves, stock market prices, public opinion. Hold your position long enough and you will get past it.
