i am gonna win and change the world and everyone to be better and promote good and prevent evil. i was born to do this
edging just leads to relapse or looking at anything like porn, your urge doesn't go away until you do. had 10 really good days and just falling short by messaging girls, need to stop that.
Day 1 checking in porn addict Feeling happy as fuck.. Therapy is helping alot. Its like personal training for my emotions. I got two numbers today just for sport. Pulled up on a girl walking, chated with her and got her number God wanted us to have fun with the opposite sex (or same) just not with PM. Nothing natural about that, just steers you off the real thing.
Okay , I am spilling a lot of energy unwisely , so I am bringing my counter to zero again . I'll be coming less and less frequently but with results and do mo . and mo . and mo . It is a week for me and Hope no PMO, Let's get it , I had enough .
Sounds good to me. So far no urges to pmo today. The chaser effect wasn’t that strong for me and it’s already gone now. I have sophomore orientation on Monday. It’s been a long time since I’ve been at school.
Day 430! Check in fellows. Hey @MixerAwersome what's up? Here as usual. Everything under control. Nothing to make me feel desire for PMO. Some times I am surprised and wonder where all this temptations and desire for PMO has gone? Freedom is the greatest feeling...
Sorry but I wasn't really able to read all the messages I read this one. I am sorry for it. I really don't know how it is working now. So to me we can duel each other again(maybe you already found another opponent I really don't know and I ask for forgiveness for it). I technically lost befe with you because I had a weak moment just before leaving, like my brain told me "hey you want to leave without the last lost?". Stupid I know, but I am here after all. After it, I am 17 days clean. So, it is like 1-1. If you want we can duel again. Otherwise(asking again for forgiveness for not reading all messages but they were 152) I am free for a duel. 17 days clean. From now on, daily checking
Right now I’m fighting @primordial-saiyan. If I beat him we’ll have a rematch. I don’t know exactly what the rules are so I’m not sure if we can do a 3 way fight. Keep your streak going though. Don’t let your brain tell you have to find an opponent to take it seriously. I’ve fallen into that trap.
I'm having huge urges, trying to control myself a lot lately. I think I have to avoid all the triggers for some days, no YouTube videos, no tv, no movies,no chatting.
Checking in for the day, been having resets everyday since I resorted to using P to escape my lingering anxiety, which is not going away since my past weeks of fear had caused my heart to be a bit wonky. If there is a positive thing that those weeks did, it's that they scared me into exercising more, and that's it really. Hopefully I can eventually move past this and not have to rely on P to escape anymore in the future.
Check in @primordial-saiyan. Yesterday I asked my dad if I could join a fighting gym. He's thinking about it and one of his friends used to box so I'm going to talk to him about what I should do. Nofap wise I've been having this small but constant urge. It's easy for me to resist but I feel like after a while I'll give in if it doesn't go away. Feelings don't mean anything though. Just because I feel like I'm going to relapse doesn't mean I'm going to let myself do it.