I greatly recommend books : Gary Wilson - Your Brain On Porn , Eddie Capparucci - Going Deeper, how the inner child impacts your sexual addiction. Currently going throught 2nd one, it's a big WOW, It tells you more about you and ur addiction, things that we're not conscious about.
Hey friends, after a pretty bad relapse and several attempts I was able to complete the 30-day challenge today. I want to keep this positive effort going so am continuing forward here. I failed last time I tried the 90-day, but I'm not giving up. Good to be back with you all on this thread. Here we go, Day 0.
Trying man. Infact doing everyday habits just like in streak. I don't know suddenly my body goes completely out of control while I am busy with work too. My mind says no. But I don't know how it is happening. Edit: I think my brain associated pmo with my present environment.
I need a completely new environment. I think that's the problem. For getting relapsed...first of all it's the thoughts too. Many times I deflect the thoughts to some other thoughts but still my body is behaving on its own. I think I need a complete change of environment. Which can happen in a month or so. I will be moving out of the house. But still I can't give up till then. So doing every habit I did during the clean days. It's a pleasure that my streak was able to help you.
I think I need to put a habit calender once again. I used to maintain a habit calender on printed papers to get motivated with doing habits and seeing clean days and relasped days weight over all. Actually I am having a partner. You can too be my partner.
Day 3/90. Don't worry about the time. The time will pass. What you need to ask yourself is where do you want to be after 90 days. I want to be a new, stronger man in 90 days.
Day 3/90. Feeling a bit worse than yesterday, but that happens especially this early on. However, I do feel as if the urges are controlled. Mentally I've blocked them out, something I hadn't been doing well prior to my last two relapses in a span of two weeks. Wish I could just feel good already, but I need to be patient to get back there!
Day 0/90 again. But I'm not worried - no shame in failing. There is only shame in giving up. Start over - and let's see how far we can go. Honestly doing nofap for 20 days in a row was so beneficial already. So relapsing, and doing another 20 or 30 days - I think it's still a success. Keep pushing until you reach 90 days to prove you can do it. And then move forward in a calm and relaxed manner - no porn or any addictive behavior. If you come during sex every now and then, it's fine. If you do it everytime it is not.
Day 1/90 Day 594 at attempting this challenge Day 207 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets
