Day 16 Reporting It is my highest streak on nofap... I hope I can reach more That" path for men "is definitely helping me Thanks @im'possible But often I have this long inner chat like I maladaptively daydream about people who hurt me who with whom I have unresolved past issue and that really sucks coz honestly it is such a wastage of time and productivity.. I stuck at academics because of it And i did some Google search Rumination and maladaptive daydreams are side effect of severe trauma as coping method to escape.. But i notice it increases the days I didn't meditate or I resist a trigger in my mind... Any solutions
Me too for that actually. I'm not sure that's daydreaming or not. I get those things while studying so I ended up redoing things again. Overwhlemed by negative thoughts. Not always tho. I'm not surprised and you aren't alone. Many folks are having that. Including pornstars. Abused in the past and can't cope up with future. So actually, they're victims too. It's like a drink. First taste is bitter, and ended up some how can't live without it. You know, male and female are different on this. So I'll just say what worked for me. That is don't resist on anything. It's painful for self denial especially once you enjoyed that so much. Instead, try different things. I recommend music. You can sing or play. Proved way of coping pain in any area. Glad to hear you are doing that course. I wish you can finish the featured one at least. So you get the basics and a medal! Just like me and @bornagaingirl ! Oh, btw, below that course has meditation. Order #1 To take charge of this life and all triggers in view. Meaning trigger is inevitable, and manageable. Smile to the trigger and live life to the best of your ability. I encouter triggers everyday, just like anybody. The differece is, I laugh it so badly and then continue to whatever I was doing. Maybe works for you too? Takes practice tho.
Could not explain it better I am trying to learn Spanish on duolingo That really gamified the learning experience it is like I play the game the only difference is that I some how end up in benefits from it unlike video games.. And i think I will meditate in the morning 25-30 minutes plus workout.. Let's see how things will do I finished two courses. Helping all parts of you heal which was really fun and helps us understand our core wounds... And the other one I forgot the name.. Looking forward for more courses Well i think I already did.. I would try to take my negative thoughts as addiction as well and try to minimize them as much as possible and smile upon triggers.. Going strong
Reporting, and All tests passed. I knew I would. The incident in "Paris" is devastating. It'd same if there's a war broke out. Mental, social, and family fitness must be train together. Same with the recovery capital concept. Today's war depends on combinations. Let's get to it.
I am sometimes not so sure if men and women are really different. Many people say men are visual and women are emotional, but I think most people have parts of both and if men are just trying to fight visually and not look for the deeper needs for PMO, it often leads to blaming women for bodies and how they dress etc. and if girls are only focused on their emotions, they might be confused why they still experience desires because they believe girls don't have visual and other triggers. So I think a combination is best. Reporting Day 27 Today I listened to a sermon and will visit the veterans and sew some combat gear (facemasks) with the retired warrior queen (grandma). Also do some walking.
as you say the cause might be different but the effect is still the same in both men and women dopamine, cortisol, serotonin etc etc have same structure in both men and women.. That Is why I really like to watch videos on recovery for men like Universal man or pathformen even though they are addressing men but I feel it very much applies/related to me as much as it would to a guy
Day 18 I copy pasted statistics from my journal to save time.. I been trying my best and will try more to get rid of this stupid addiction and heal my brain from clenches of traumatic past, heal my Ptsd and Rumination... And every day I will improve every day I will give my best the best I can I won't stop until I reach where I wanna reach... Enough of suffering.. Enough of tormenting myself with sick masochistic fantasies.. Now I won't let myself dim my light I will work hard.. The best I can to heal myself off course with God's help ( this is the motivation you get after practicing all your powerups maybe lol ) MEDITATION Breathing exercises :9minutes Timed meditation :6minutes Guided mediation :10 minutes Meditation for addiction :10minutes(1st step) Total :36 minutes Meditation time :almost in morning(which is good) Meditation quality : good Loved Chanting mantra " I see your pain but I also see your courage " 2) PHYSICAL ACTIVITY Cold shower workout( after ages) (=felt extra energy like never before besides it is such an trigger effect killer) clean my room Balancing gymnastics to cure maladaptive Ruminations 4) ACADEMICS : 30 minutes of Spanish Plus detailed plan comming 0 actual academic 6)Spiritual 4 prayers + read holy book, missed one prayer State of brain : very productive, Ruminations /daydream : 25% Goal is to have zero percentage of Rumination + maladaptive daydreams (Escaping from reality).. But still it is good given that I have average 75% Ruminations Day score :80% I m happy and proud
Reporting, Conversational level. Will be busy next week. Training excersised. Overwhelmed. Never fight the fight when no chances of winning. Planning to catch up some academics if the time allows. Prayer and a story from a honorable chap. Stay strong.
Day 19 Learned it in the meditation lesson... It explains lot about my current mindset @im'possible " to be present here and now is extremely difficult for Ppl with addiction and over time it changes the way we see ourselves. Anything that was priority is lost (in my case academic).. Reality seems like a distant friend. We fall deeper into insanity. But there is hope and it starts with the courage to be present Yoga : agitations of mind are solved Sanity : soundness of mind Yoga =sanity -mediation - cold showers -workout (sleep time stretches) -recovery videos -prayers
Weekend Service Good seed. Facing adversaries, addictions, never ending headaches. We're not berried, but planted. Dont judge too soon the circumstances. The master gardener knows. Keep saying I'm a good seed. Regardless.
Atten hut! Personal to be awarded, front and center! Citation of Fight the New Drugs medal to Warrant Officer @bornagaingirl The above personal has successfully completed the summary report of additional five hours trainings. Information, education, and recovery process are acquired. The trainng command is proudly approved this medal 5098. The numbers representing the initial post of this achievement. Congradulations and carry on. The recipient has the right to put this medal on signature. Sergeant 1st Class@MONSTER MONK Lieutenant@im’possible Nofap Army Bootcamp
Reporting, just for fun. Some questions for all things fitness. In my case. ¿Physical fitness? Goals oriented. Standard focused. Supporting my health. ¿Mental fitness? Emotional control. A sense of humor. Relax as needed. ¿Spiritual fitness? Values. Prayers. ¿Social fitness? Sense of community. Confidence.
Reporting on the weekend. Went to church on Sunday and a church activity on Saturday. Worked out yesterday. Finished two books yesterday. Started reading a book on Christian sexual ethics. Urges are under control. We're about to finish the first month again.
Im reporting, sweated a lot so had gallons of water. were the best combination for fun. Skippped mental training but prayed with the chap. Awfully fought with the computer and fixed 50%. Learned is good for me. For my eyes. Worked too. Im out.
Reporting Day 31. First month completed again. Walked 10k yesterday. Sewed more combat gear with grandma. Now rewatching Dirty Dancing and analyzing how that message about sex may be wrong.