Much love back, yeah life is hard but I hope these benefits will come. i will later look at your video that you sent me, thanks ^^
Day 73 Shiit man, I just met with some friends and I am a bit drunk, but I think I have enough control to not look at porn. Instead I`m going sleep, better this than regret something later.
Day 0/90. I could call this day one, as technically my day counter goes to 1 at 10 p.m. but I'm not really up at that time normally. I went and saw Endgame last night, and right before I felt some extreme urges. In fact, throughout the day I felt some really hard urges (and got really hard too). Finally, I gave in at night. It was still a fun night, and I turned back to God immediately instead of trying to hide from him like I have sometimes after I MO. But I still am frustrated. I set, and achieved, my goal to get one week without MO this month. Now, I'm aiming for 2 weeks. Maybe after achieving that, I won't go straight back to it like I did last night. But maybe not, and maybe I'll have to keep aiming toward ever-higher goals until I beat this truly. I just don't know. All I do know is I'm not giving up, and I'm getting back up today to fight again.
Day 7 on Challenge..First Week Day 14 Hard Mode. The mind can be a little tricky but if you identify on time , you can beat the urges.
Day 22 of no PM Day 91 of no alcohol or caffeine Day 59 of weight training - all good today as I seem to be in euphoria mode all day - needed to take a sleeping pill last night as my sleep patterns are still messed up from PMO as well as withdrawal from PMO - had a great workout pumping iron today which also usually helps me sleep better and feel euphoric - all has been great with the wife for several months now as my mood swings from PMO'ing seems to have stopped (as I have stopped) and I am a much nicer person which in turn has mellowed the wife out too - starting to realize most of the dysfunction and fights in our marriage have been caused by my roller coaster of emotions from the dopamine ups and downs of PMO'ing or abstaining - as PMO gets under control so my feeling of well being, peace and happiness are increasing which in turn makes my marriage go smoother - hope that advice helps someone out there - peace and love to all my brother fapstronauts out there
Thoughts. Thoughts can be spoken. Then they were written down. Everyday here I am going to write. Everyday I see more and more things on how other teen watch porn. Like what the hell. It's really just a monster. But I can understand. I relapsed again today. The days I feel good I just say check in. But then I relapse. And every time I relapse here I am writing. I can see what it does but all the time I just do it. I don't change. I am not trying. I always think of how good it feels, how convenient it would be for me to do it right now. I know. Now I am going to read some other posts to try to get myself motivated. I'm also going to think. Hopefully my writing gets better haha.