Really tough day (8). Intense cravings on the beach. The beach is a duality: on the one hand, I’m becoming reacquainted with what human bodies actually look like. On the other, some look damn good, which makes me horny, which makes me want to PMO. Lately, I haven’t craved P as much as O. But I’m trying to view it in a positive sense. It feels like I’ve got a third center now, like a part of me that was dead is now back to life. Yet it’s difficult for my mind and heart to adjust. There’s a lot of pain and discomfort, but PMO only leads to suffering. This is growing pain. This is good pain.
Day 33 check-in! I am now a peaceful warrior initiate, starting my journey of change! Thank the universe for this community! May the light of conciousness be with us all!
Day 43 check in. On vacation with the family. Trying not to be distracted or tempted from the "scenery" on the beach
16/90 I'm learning along the way on this journey to love myself. Sometimes I think I've got this. That it's not normal for me to fap. But in truth it is when I don't fap that is the abnormal. My body; my nature is to get as much as pleasure as I can. That's my disease. 1 day without PM is not normal. That's why I will no longer take for granted even a few days without PM.