Since you didn't ejaculate, then you still on track. Just continue counting. Cause I think the entire aim of this platform is to help us controll the urges when they come. And what you did was to control them. So congs bro. I suggest today you reward yourself. By doing something you like. Maybe take yourself out, take someone else out, play a sport, just do some thing to help you remember this accomplishment.
Day 6 successfully completed. Now on day 7. Today woke up with an erection. Seems my sexual energy is coming back. Even I am really fatigued. I play tennis and on Sunday trained the entired day. Monday reached I was super sluggish and tired. Very unmotivated. Finding it hard to concentrate. Any ideas on how to overcome fatigue. Am missing the days when I was motivated and exicted.
I have always found this strange ever since I got addicted I was never caught masturbating. Even though some times I was in a high risk place. Even at campus my roommates never walked in on me. I used to think maybe of some ones walks in on me. I would feel very ashamed and guilty so I would stop the addiction but that failed. But now am gaining control day by day through this platform. And will finish my 90 days without relapsing
Well, actually that is one main issue, it builds up both ways: On one hand you feel great because you never get caught by colleagues, spouses etc., but what is even more crucial, unintentionally you manage to have the PMO package as your/our little save space... This is the most important thing to recognise and to back off from.
Congrats! Thanks for the advise, I will keep them in mind. Keep on charging forward, I wish you much success and happiness
Day 9 of no PMO Hard Mode. Almost 10, which would be 1/3 of 30. Which would be 1/3 of 90. I woke up this morning with a bunch of sexual "dreams" kind of and for a moment, in my dream, it felt like I relapsed for real. Then I woke up and was relieved that it was just a dream and didn't feel like relapsing at all. Then again, it is my brain processing the PMO addiction. Also yesterday night I had some cravings for sure. Can't really tell if they were strong or not, but I didn't act on them (I'm not planning to anytime soon lol, unless I want to become blind and deaf from tinnitus and live like an old man with health issues in my 20s, which then probably no doctor would be able to understand and help me with xd ). My whole situation is a struggle right now, however there is plenty of hope and I will continue to do the best possible action for every situation even when it is really difficult and stressful or rock bottom. I hope this motivates you somehow Let's keep it up. I'll keep updating.
Day 8/90 No PM (ends May 10) Day 389 on this challenge Day 136 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol