I relapsed...I feel fucked up.... I think I am dead... I’m dead right now...it’s been 3 fuckin years trying to be better... but shit help me.... I will be out of nofap for a while now... I hope you guys would be doin fine... see u all later
Hello gentlemen, I am returning here after a busy few weeks. Fapping sort of went by the way-side pretty much because I was otherwise occupied and then when that slowed down, I resumed my old habits. But now that I have returned to a calmer existence, I must return to this. 0/90.
Day 6/90; bracing for tomorrow -day 7 is tyipically when MO happens, followed by PMO repeat, repeat, repeat...
Day 24/90 No PM (ends May 10) Day 405 attempting this challenge Day 138 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
Day 24 abt to be completed. Tommorow 25. 5 more days to break through another barrier. Of recent am feeling very good. I like am noticing so much improvement in my life. Will fill in about all of it after my day 31
day 8, couldn't post for day 7 Yesterday I had a dream that I had looked at P (on my school chromebook of all things, which is always being monitored by the school), but held back the urge. I know that dreams don't reflect my concious mind at all, but it shows my subconscious brain may be getting used to being on this battle for so long. (But my Unconcious mind, well, that's were the bulk of rewiring goes on)
Don't leave. Learn from your mistakes. If this is really hard, try a lite mode reboot, where you can still MO. Porn is the greatest evil here. After you can deal with no porn, cut out the M or even O for a 30-90 day period. I'm going at the Hard Mode Reboot, but this is because I have a goal going here, but I'm not going to big. Don't set a goal of 90 if you can't do it. Maybe just 3 days, a week, 2 weeks, a month, etc. Also, if you don't have a big reason directly relevant to you, you NEED one. If you don't have one, you will forever be in a cycle of relapse.
I too have noticed this cycle, no libido whatsoever for about two weeks then I get absolutely horny for three days and thats usually when I convince myself to peek at porn. In this current streak I have had my goals clear in my mind and libido hasnt risen to uncontrollable levels in any time.
I have a question: I heard about this movie called shame I don't know if anyone have heard of it. If you haven't please don't search for it on you tube as it has softcore type sex scenes. So I just watched like a 1 minute trailer of the movie and the trailer had like a strip scene should I reset my counter? As Gabe said in one of his YouTube videos that he kept away from all sort of radio music and movies during reboot and thus this makes me think Iv spoiled my reboot streak by looking at the trailer of the movie. What should I do? I am feeling quit sad that after all these days staying away from triggers I in the name of Nofap p addiction motivation opened up the YouTube app and saw the thing.
day 4! Signs of spring and sun, I went back to only abstaining from Porn, because my marital life is going well right now and after relapsing last time with 21 days PMO, I concluded to concentrate on the biggest problem in my life! AdmiralSnakbar, you gave a good advice...
No man. I think you're being way too harsh on yourself. You just stumbled upon this. To me, nofap is about changing your behaviour. And stumbling upon a trailer has nothing to do with it. Also, Shame is actually a really good movie about the effects of sexual addiction so I think it could help in recovery