Day 6/90 It's the weekend. I hate weekends when it comes to staying clean. Too much time. But I'm already out doing some healthy stuff. Good luck fellas.
Don't be too hard on yourself... self forgiveness is important. A couple of times in my life I ve made this spontaneous ritual of hugging myself thinking of everything I did that was against me... and forgave me. I even cried the first time I did it. Makes you whole again. Stay strong, it's hard but worth it
Well.. first relapse. It s a 30 years old habit in a 40 years old man. In my context 3 days of abstinence was A LOT... And I ll work in making my streaks longer each time. My mistake today was not "cleaning" my house. And trying to do in AFTER starting my abstinence streak. I was surprised by how just a peek into my old old porn mags started me up. Relapse is not bad if you learn from each mistake, I guess its part of the process. Its not starting over, its just falling a couple of steps down. But it hurts a bit to reset that counter. See u around
Day 33/90. I've never made it this far. I've not peaked and I've not Md the whole time. Hadn't had an O either for 30 days before I visited my girlfriend for the first time since I started. It may be another 30 until the next time that happens again in these covid times. I'm very pleased with where I am.
so it's day 1 and it will be completed in 1 hour ,, actually uninstalled spotify today as it giving me craving to watch music videos ,, and you'll know that how much instigating those music videos are ,, also stopped watching pubg mobile live stream excessively and will watch it sometime only as a reward for my achievements ;; also made a new routine of sleeping 12 to 4 am in night and 3 to 5/6 pm in noon ;; and i am following this from past 4 days ;; also i am afraid of youtube as i slips there and fell in those trap ;; i also minimised my web / youtube activities and decided to journal every youtube / web search ,,, i have a doubt gthat it will be good or not as i relapsed on youtube 1 day ago instead of journaling as when urges came i forgot about journal ;; how how can i make my journal effective ,,
Day 18/90 Day 575 at attempting this challenge Day 198 weigh training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets