Hey man! These are some really great thoughts! I just want to encourage you that you're definitely on the right track by paying attention to your thoughts. For a long time I believed that if I wasn't actually looking at porn or masturbating then I was sticking to the challenge. It took me a while to realize that letting my mind run wild imagining sexy girls was creating the same internal conditions as porn and actually feeding the addiction. Like you said, you lose the benefits of nofap, so the effects are similar to actually fapping. Your awareness of how it affects you in your social interactions will also be really helpful. Keep paying attention to yourself and how these things affect you. Porn is an incredibly sneaky addiction. Don't EVER excuse yourself on a technicality. "Well, this isn't technically porn because they have their clothes on" / "Well, it's fine as long as it's just my imagination" / "I was touching myself for two hours but I didn't actually orgasm, so I'm not going to count that as a relapse"....and many more. Your brain will find a million and one ways to rationalize some way of feeding the addiction that isn't technically against the rules. If you keep paying attention to yourself and your reactions to these things, you'll see much more clearly what porn addiction really is and be able to avoid it.
Day 32 of no PMO. Time for me to review my commitment, as I have been starting to fantasize a little bit. I want to lay aside that mental activity now as I remember how much better life is without it.
Day 24, LETS GOOOOOO!!! Starting a new semester at a new school and hoping to keep clearing my mind and my time to focus on those things of most importance! Grateful to be apart of this community and all the support and likes. It makes a difference.
day 6 ,, it's 6 am , and today is indian teacher's day ,, today i hung out with my friends though video meetings , and didn't slept ,, we all had fun ,, but i am worried that i didn't slept today , as from past month i was facing some issues with my sleep and from last 10 days , i got my sleep back especially in night , but today i broke my time table ,, i am promissing to myself that i will sleep regularly on time , and will never stay up late at night ever ,, also i will never break my rules , i have also promised to myself that , i will not watch any movies or any tv series until and unless my goals are not completed ,, this was the last time i stayed up late at nights ,, just happy for today , i probably made many friends today , i hope they loved my company
Day 31/90 Day 588 at attempting this challenge Day 204 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets