You're right and thank you for the kind words! ...and when I mentioned "nightmare", I meant it: last night I almost didn't get any sleep with my heart beating like a drum as well as arguments with my wife. I shouldn't have let it go after reaching the 22 days peak and using the relapse afterwards as a relaxation...
Late check-in on my 3rd day. I feel ready to make some positive changes in my life. I'll write more about those later. Keep doing your best everyone.
This is day 45 of not doing PM. This is day 1 of not looking at any P-subs. I joined this forum 375 days ago. Of those 375 days, I spend 334 days without doing PMO.
Day 1 I know man I actually got to this point by overtraining and had never before faced insomnia so was willing to try any form of relaxation. I know it's not the answer - the funny thing is , my libido is so low right now, I didn't even enjoy it ... It's all the stress combined, which I don't want to spill out here, since this forum is not to make eachother feel worse or sorry for one another. Exactly the opposite. So yes, I am starting again and will remove the P subs like insta as well. I got one advice for you - don't keep 10 counters. I see you started a new one about P-subs. Just try to not look at those and don't track that. Don't lose focus by tracking many things at once You can do it I will too
Yeah, that extra counter is a little experiment. It's because I feel like I'm cheating with the '45 days', you know? Because that streak is not as clean as I wish it was. Didn't you keep some separate counters for a while as well? Did you have a bad experience with that? Stress is a bitch! If I knew how to deal with that, I would never have been addicted in the first place. So, I know what you're going through...
Day 17/90. Realized for the first time in my life that how pleasurable life could have been without PMO. Deep regrets about unwitting tragedies.
Try not to let those regrets get you down too much! We all know them, but the past is the past. It's amazing that you're changing now!
DAY 21 - 12/11/20 - 6:12PM Good day with no urges, motivation to work was low after lunch and I gave into too much TV. OK day overall
