Kicking off the 90 day challenge with a commitment to avoid p-subs or actively pursue any sexually stimulating pixels or fantasies. My plan is to check in every 5 days. Day 1 done.
60 is awesome, friend. You can keep it going, I know you can. I'm just a few days behind you - let's do this!
Well done buddy. This kind of commitment is what it takes to get through the tough times. It's a kind of deep insistence that acting out is just NOT going to happen. I see it as the difference between a 99% and 100% decision. That last 1% is difficult, but also where our success ultimately lies. There is no "wiggle room", the door is not left ajar, there is only a kind of cold determination that a relapse is unacceptable. Keep going man, you can do this all the way to 90.
Relapse after 39 days. 2 days binge. Start again with a stone attached to my heart. Will be checking in every 5 days.
Day 32/90. Ended up calling a friend yesterday after I posted and felt better. I'm going to try to call another bro today. Had someone call me today so that was nice. Also got a couple texts. Overall I'm just feeling more connected than I've ever been in my life. I'm really grateful for it!
Hey 90 day peeps. Today I have been clean, and will continue to be clean. The only problems today have been with me food intake - I have been eating the wrong things and also drinking caffeine and eating sugar. these are thinks that I like to avoid because they affect my judgement and mood. That is it now, - will only drink water until I sleep. Tomorrow I will have only one cup of caffeine tea in the morning and then the rest will be decaf or water. Tomorrow I am working at different care home so I need to be prepared. I will eat better tomorrow as,well!!
Day 13 done today. Some days ago I put on a no porn filter (K9 web protection) and i have no way to unistall it/modify it as i dont have the password which i emailed to my future self uring futureme.org. I changed my pc account from admin to standard so I cant unistall. Anyway, when it comes to my personal life, I feel like I need more dicipline and focus. First I will try to sleep on time and enough to not be tired during the day. I have also been meeting this girl and i'm not sure what i want yet as i havent escalated yet. I think i'm afraid of sexual encounter with a women as the last time that happened i couldn't get it up due to PIED and she ended up laughing at me. That is one of the reason why I need to beat this porn curse which is for myself.
