Im into day 9 . I need to be better about checking in. Thanks to you who post something - some is inspiring ,some i relate to but all of it is good. I also gave up coffee about 4 days ago and Ive been feeling a bit out of whack emotionally lately.I just try and feel it without avoiding or indulging. One day at a time.
Hey buddy! This is a text from "Gifts of recovery" book. “The wound is where the light enters you.” –Rumi We are all wounded. It is important that we acknowledge and work to heal our wounds. When we ignore our emotional wounds, they fester and the emotional infections come out in our behaviors and interactions. In 12-Step meetings, we hear many stories about the damage our fellow addicts have done when they have not liked themselves, did not believe they deserved good things, or automatically placed themselves above or below others. These stories are examples of emotional wounds being expressed. However, by acknowledging our emotional wounds (which can be scary) and addressing our emotional wounds (which can be painful) we allow for healing, not just for ourselves but also for those around us. Sometimes this healhealing comes from direct actions, such as making amends to others for our past behaviors. Sometimes this healing comes from indirect actions, such as intentionally or unintentionally modeling healthy behaviors and interactions. When we acknowledge and address our emotional wounds, we allow the light to enter. When have I denied my emotional wounds? What has been the cost to me and others? What gifts await me as I acknowledge and work to heal my emotional wounds?
Day 71/90. Good day. Had a good time talking to a woman. It's interesting, about 10 minutes into the conversation I'm talking about my struggle with porn. She asked about the book studies I'm part of and overall I'm becoming way less ashamed, (just to clarify still ashamed) that I'm trying to recover from porn. Better than hiding from it and acting like the self righteous hypocrite I typically am. *shrugs*.
16/90, one of the toughest days so far on this journey , however still holding on!! hopefully the urges will be less or even go away tomorrow
