Day 20 in the list!! Currently feeling disturbed, tomorrow I am going on a 4-5 days trip. I will go with full positivity and will enjoy my trip.
Day 6 check-in of no PMO. Feeling pretty relaxed right now and no real urges. I'm aware this can change in every moment though.
Relapsed again. Feeling like shit now. Not trying to make excuses but good god I can't wait to start working again in january. I believe this will help me as I won't be alone so much anymore and also have a reason to get up in the morning and be productive. This was be the last time I pmo'ed. I'm gonna make a commitment now: From now on I will ignore sexual thoughts and do something different when they come. This addiction is not who I am. I want to feel connection with others, friends and have a loving and fulfilling relationship. I want to be sexually healthy and not an addict with erectile dysfunction. I am an adult with responsibility for me and my life and the people that care for me. I know perfectly well how pmo damages me, my life, my social relationships. I know it's the reason for my depression. I just have to act on that knowledge. I will remember this moment right now everyday as a memorial. So here we go. Day 0
Completed day 13, very good day again - still unproductive though, I have to work on this soon - and the urges are slowing down now! And I feel much more confident with myself now, can stand up straight without too much effort and in general see life more positive than before? However, I still need to be cautious with the journey, especially because my longest streak has been 14 days for like 2 years, and surely there is a battle in my head coming soon... I'm motivated and determined to do this, and we'll get through this - stay strong!
Check-in P: 16 days M: 42 days O: 42 days * 1 PMO (not counted as relapse) * 1 MO (not counted as relapse)
Just got through day 15! Had some temptations the last few days when I feel stressed and want to escape, but made sure I kept away from computers during those periods. Each time we beat a temptation results in a transformation of ourselves, so I'm glad for the temptations.
sorry this may sound childish, but cant possibly stress this enough : STAYING ACTIVE IS KEY. the law of conservation of energy holds here: energy otherwise spent on pmo must be = energy spent by you in doing other stuff (working out, doing work, studying, etc). if not all energy is converted, the remaining energy will manifest itself in the form of an urge. and i think we all know what the road from there looks like. again, not against urges. resisting urges is one of the best ways to discipline ones mind. but still, jussayin'.
Finished day 14, and I didn't have too many urges today... But the game is just starting, I need to break my record now and go beyond that - I'm not giving in, fuck you porn and stay strong bros!
Check-in P: 17 days M: 43 days O: 43 days * 1 x PMO not counted as relapse * 1 X MO not counted as relapse
