Day 0/90 Didnt break our rules but questioned my motives on something that we were experiencing together and felt I had manipulated my SO. Honestly and recovery is more important than my pride
Will be 19/90 in an hour. Day 0/90 with no cigarette As soon as you trust yourself you will know how to live - Goethe I'm going to add something to that -- as soon as you think your existence is justified, in spite of a nasty porn addiction, you will find that you are worth the effort it takes to improve yourself.
Feeling more positive today. Day 87. The urges for PMO are not there which is great. Had the discussion with my Doctor today about SSRIs so I’m going down that path. I’d been reluctant to for a long time but now I feel it’s the correct thing to do. I’m convinced my brain chemistry is just naturally imbalanced and that it’s time to try something different. I’m sticking with the noFap though.
I hvnt used them. For 12-15 years I’ve used PMO to avoid dealing with depression and anxiety. I’m now dealing with it and I’m going to have to try SSRIs
Oh God I am so horny right now... After watching a Ted talk about the benefits of NoFap another suggestive video came of a woman giving a Ted talk and man she's hot. After third day seems easily to get turned on. Urges are stronger. But I wont give in... I want my Life back.. All the years porn took away from me, I can't give in.
67/90 Today I had so much urges. Probably it's because in the last days I've been on a travel, where I had felt a lot of adrenalin and dopamin. Now I was been at home so that adrenalin had decreased, and my brain just needed something, to get dopamin and stuff. I didn't knew about this kind of stuff, but I think that's the answer for the question why had I felt this much craving for porn. Because my level of happiness was on a high level, and that decreased now. Now I know that even if I'm on the good path by the grace of God, I'm still an addict. I write this to you guys, to be careful if you come to this kind of situation.
