don´t get sloopy bro, you know what happens if we let days go by without passion. work on your dreams bro, be happy
it´s very usual to feel like that. try to use porn blockers and don´t be home alone. the beggining of the reboot it´s the hardest part, it´s the compulsion stage where addicts tend to relapse without thinking. that´s why it´s better to create physical barriers. only when there´s no hesitation in you to have compulsive behaviours, you can be alone.
Day 9- Check In!! Today's Quote: I does not matter how slowly you go as long s you do not stop. - Confucius!!
Start Date: Jan 25, 2019 Day 119/122 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102) Day 20/90 consecutive no PM Day 122 no alcohol or caffeine Day 90 weight training - feeling good this morning but had some urges last night which were hard to deal with - I was tired and irritable which I realize now is a trigger for me - stayed on the straight and narrow though and happy to say didn't relapse or even look at porn - I got to the point of scrolling through YouTube videos looking for something riske' and luckily nothing showed up before I came to my senses and turned my cell off - my brain rationalizes that if I don't type in any porn related words on the search but find something sexy by accident (seeing what's naturally appears), then that's okay - what a fucked up addiction this is ... So insidious and always lurking within us to trick us - lesson learned to avoid internet searches when in a miserable mood
Day 9 on the counter. Feeling hopeful, I can definitely do it. I felt alive today. Talking to people was more of an engaging experience full of possibilities. Had a tooth appointment, talked to an old lady, goddamn!
Day 4! I found this image on internet, i think it's very beautiful, it represents all of us. It became my new background
Show everybody that you`re not weak! Tell your fucking addiction your better than this!! No more apologies, no more bad feelings. You`re a fighter who wants to become a champion! Remember: God gives his hardest battle to the strongest soldiers . Never give up